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Melvin Tang
sixteen june ; seventeen
bishan ite
When the story of mine begins with you, Miss Z.Xueting♥
♥I don't have to be your first love,
But i do want to be your last .♥
way beyond

♥I am who I am because of you.
♥You are every reason,
♥Every hope, and every dream i've ever had,
♥And no matter what happens to us in the future,
♥Everyday we're together is the greatest day in my life.
♥I'll always be yours.
♥I love you.

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♥ Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Really am mentally tired. Really wanted to rest, But there are tons of things running through my mind, so i guess i'll rant it all here before i go get some rest and chill.
Guess today sure is a bad day for me.
Words from different people holds different values, different impact.
Just when i thought things will be better after yesterday.
I'm wrong. When will it actually stop?
Maybe you didn't mean anything you said today,
Maybe it's really that I'm being too serious about it.
Maybe I'm just being too sensetive about it.
But still, It still hurts alot.
To you, I might be having the simplest life ever,
Free from studies and free to go out and play everyday.
Its a fact that my schedule is not as packed as yours.
I'm not facing that kind of stress you're having,
From what you see, I'm just that kind of person that goes out to play and enjoy myself not studying at all.
No one actually knows that i'm spending the effort to be home early to revise those god damn books, although i still hate books as much.
I mean, do i even have a choice? I wanted to score well at the end of the year.
But it seems to me that no one knows. I expected the least that you should know that i'm already spending the effort. But it's either the effort that i've spent is not enough or you failed to realise it isn't it?
I dislike that fact that you told me that I'm trying to push you away to other people when the fact is that I'm not.
It might be a joke, But that will be a bad joke to me.
I'll never push you away. Not now, neither will it be in future.
Do you even know how important you are to me?
When you tell me that won't i find it a little no use telling you some things.
It really hurts alot.
My concern had became something no use. Maybe that's not what you meant.
But still, it makes me wonder how much value my words holds to you too.
The next message you sent me makes me feels like we're strangers.
I'm really stuck and disappointed when i saw that.
I didn't expect things to turn out this way.
I didn't know so much things could be changed within a short one week too.
I'm wondering that will you text me when you're going to bed.
Will it be "I'm going to sleep already, nights" ?
I'm starting to miss the kind of days we had together before school started.
But even when so many things had happened, I still love you as much.
I really want this period of time to end soon.





signing off @3:06 AM
♥ Tuesday, April 28, 2009

It's pretty weird,
I'm not surprised after reading your blog.
It's already pretty obvious afew days ago.
It's just that I've been lying to myself.
Lying to myself that things will get better as time pass.
But it seems like I'm wrong.

Somehow, It affected me alot after that day you studied in mac.
It's like, every conversation that was started between us was ended by a few words,
You plucked in your earpiece before we tapped in.
And in between was like so quiet.
I don't really know what to do or say.
Afraid that you'll be annoyed by it.
You didn't meet up with bl and walked home.
I get to know it only by reading your blog.
It's like, we're suddenly miles apart.
I believe that you know that kind of feeling sucked to the core too.

It's not like i failed to realised anything.
It's just that, after that day, I'm afraid that our conversation will end with afew words again. And i don't really know how to say stuffs.
I'm not blaming on it. But you should realised that you've been very low every night ever since school started.
Everynight was like so cold and nightmares to me.
For that moment, It's not i want time to stop anymore, I wanted night to never come.
Cause whenever i tried to cheer you up, It never seems to work.
I'm really an idiot at times isn't it?
I'm seeing you feeling so low and yet i can't do anything bout it.
Got to agree that I'm really useless too.

But still, I want to cheer you up when you're feeling low.
I want to be the one to carry you up when you falls.
I want to be always there for you.






signing off @3:35 AM
♥ Friday, April 24, 2009

1.Are you single - ' Happily Attached xD
2.Are you happy -' Yupps =D
3.Are you bored - ' Yupps, Bored to the core =/
4.Are you fair - ' Not for me to judge =D
5.Are you italian - ' How i wish i am =/
6.Are you intelligent - ' Nope, I'm dumb & its very very dumb (: *Ms Z Xueting says so* (:
7.Are you honest - ' No , i'm never honest =/
8.Are you nice - 'No, i'll never be nice, i'm always very mean :x
9.Are you Irish - 'No, obviously not, i'm a Singaporean , kiasu people
10' Facts about you
Full name: Melvin Tang Hao Tian
Nickname : Mel
Birthplace: Thomson Hospital
Hair colour: Black, White, Purple =D
Natural hairstyle : Mushroom
Eye colour: Black Black =/
Date of Birth : 16 June 1992 ( its not anything special , no need rmb )
Mood : Bad Mood, I just got pinched D: & i'm drying people's hair now D:
Favourite colour (S) : blue
One place you like to visit: The NICE smelling toilet
10'questions about my love life.
1.Have you ever been in love - Yes, like who never, ha !
2.Do you believe in love at first sight - Okay luhh =D
3.Do you currently have a crush - Yes :)
4.Have you ever been hurt emotionally - yes, like who never =/
5.Have you ever broken someone's heart - Yes most guys do that =/
6.Have you have your heart broken - Yes, lot of time :(
7.Have you ever liked someone but never told them - No No , i very open de =/
8.Are you afraid of commitment - Yes, i very scared.
9.Who was the last person you hug- My bolster, its a person to me !
10.Who was the last person you said I love you to- Some idiot =/
10'this or that
1.Love of lust - Lust!
2Hard liquor or beer - Both both!
3.Cat or Dog- Neither =/
4.A few best friends or regular friends - I want none
5.Creamy or crunchy - idw , later my teeth drop. =x
6.Pencil or Pen - I want rubber
7.Wild night out or a romantic night in - Both night within one night =D
8.Money or happiness - Both also want :)
9.Night or day - Afternoon =D
10.IM or phone - What is IM? I want Ipod
10'Have you ever'
1.Been caught sneaking out - I've never been sneaking in =x
2.Seen a polar bear - Got! In my dreams =x
3.Done something you regret - I've never done anything that i never regret.
4.Bungee jump - Later i'm lost, idw =/
5.Eaten food that fell on the floor - Nope and never! Wayne likes to do that
6.Finished entire jaw breaker - Yes, Many times too, oops
7.Been caught naked -Yes, always
8.Wanted an ex gf/bf back -I have what i have already =/
9.Cried bcos you lost a pet - Yes, i cried for 3 days 3 nights
10.Wanted to disappear -No , later cannot come back
10'preferences in a patner
1.Smile or eyes - smile (:
2.Light or dark hair - both
3.Hugs or kisses - None,
4.Shorter or taller - taller than me :)
5.Intelligent or Attraction -no need luhh, i also not so clever :)
6.Topman or zara - None, 3 for $10 , pasamalam =/
7.Funny or serious - serious ! just like a teacher,
8.Older or younger - older than me , i like old people
9.Outgoing or quiet - Quiet, so that i can talk alot =/
10.Sweet or bad - bad, can suan me more =/
10'Have you's
1.Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yes, pole dance :D
2.Ever talked on the phone for longer than 1 hr - no, i got no friends to talk so long
3.Ever walk on hands - no need luhh, got legs can already =/
4.Ever been to a rock concert -No, stone musical yes !
5.Ever been in a cheerleading team - no, i dont want die so early
6.Ever been in a dance team- no need luhh, i dance pole dance no need team
7.Ever been in sports team - No, im a walking fishball , cannot play sports
8.Ever been in a drama play/production - no need lah , i so POPULAR liao =/
9.Ever owned o BWW/Mercedes Benz/Escalade/Hummer/Bentley- No, i got a bicycle ( 4 wheels)
10.Ever been in a rap video - Nope
10'Lasts
1.Last phone call you made - Daddy =/
2.Last person you hugged- bolster rather than xueting
3.Last person you hung out with - If hung, i'll be dead !
4.Last time you worked - i work out very often
5.Last person you talked to - rather talk to a bowl den xueting =/ oops
6.Last person you IM'D - does not know IMD stand for
7.Last person you text - rather text next door neighbour than her =D
8.Last person you went movie with - with LJT
9.Last person/thing you missed - My porridge =/
10.Last website you visited - porn =x , & gin's blog (:
Quiz Done By Ms ZXT =D
All done by her =/
Oh~ Poor me ~ =(





signing off @12:59 PM
♥ Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Grandpa was admitted to the hospital last night.
They told me that he was having kidney disfunction.
Had his first dialysis yesterday.
Going down to ttsh later on. =D
*To the world, You may be one person.
But to one person, You might be the world!*
I've never had this kind of feeling before.
I wanted time to stop immediately,
Its very hard to see you getting so troubled before you gets into poly.
Its also very hard to know that you will hardly have the time to rest.
Wondering if we even have the time to meet up.
I'll be satisfied as long as i can say ILY and hug you everyday.
But it seems like it'll be hard.
The way you put it to me is like there'll be totally no chance to see each other.
That's why i wanted to change topic in the afternoon.
It really breaks my beart that you put it that way.
Baby, I'm really worried bout your poly life.
But still, You still have to promise me some things uhhs.
No matter what happens, don't cry okays?
As in, towards friends and results,
Cause you never know how much i loved to see you smile.
A smile of yours could make a day of mine.
And and and, you promised me already, you're not allowed to neglect me in any way ahhs.
I'm not going to give you constant reminders. =D
You got to work that out yourself =D
And please. Before school starts, don't make it sounds like poly is hell.
It might be fun you know =D !!
IAMMISSINGYOUBADLY!!
*One day i caught myself laughing for no reason, Then i found out that I'm thinking of You*
Its not really bothering me if zy could accept me or not.
I'm not being offended in anyway.
But still, Some things never change. ^^
At the end of the day,
I am still who i am.
The difference gap is way too big.
But it doesnt really matters too. =D
Who cares if she could accept me or not?
Whats more important is you've already accepted me already isnt it? <3
ILOVEYOU BABY! <3
*I seem to have a problem. I think I've lost my heart, I can't find it anywhere, Its like I'm searching in the dark, I was beginning to panic. wondering what to do. But then i remembered I gave it to you. *





signing off @1:10 AM
♥ Friday, April 10, 2009

Celebrated grandpa's birthday today at some steamboat restaurant around Novena today.
It was fun overall.
Was very fed up with my stupid mother for being that un-responsible.
For not telling me the details of where to meet and where to eat.
I've got to ask her myself.

Came back to yishun after the dinner and went to dennis's house to drink. *My 2nd aunt. Used to call her by her name*
Went to NTUC to get some mixer and had some conflict with some old slut.
Knocked into my aunt when she didnt say "excuse me".
So my aunt told me Singaporeans now have no manners. LOL!
She turned back and stared at me like one kind and told us loudly that she said "excuse me" 3 times.
Obviously, me and my aunt didn't heard her saying that.
And she didn't stop at all.
Made me so mad.
As in, She don't have to be rude and talk that loudly in the public,
She stared at me obviously and she told me she was looking at her husband.
I was like, Wtf? OO
Her husband confronted me after that, saying that his wife was looking at him.
Told him politely that his wife was obviously looking at me , Duhh! everyone saw that.
That husband of her's was siding his wife of cause.
Talking louder and louder, then saying that is he being rude now by talking that loud.
Lols. This is what i get when i am being polite to him uhhs?
Fine, was thinking no point quarreling with this kind of bastard.
2nd aunt suddenly came and ask what happen.
Before that man could explain,
she told the cashier to ask for the manager to come,
while i told him to give me a minute while i make a report to the police since he doesn't seems to be quite happy with it, acting like some big shots.
Although i really feel like slapping his damn face, but i held back. Lols, it wont solve the matter afterall.
Think he is working in mediacorp. His expression and attitude change to fast that even i can't believe it.
One moment he was standing at his wife side. After my aunt asked for the manager and i said i wanted to make a report, he apologise immediately. LOL!
Seriously, i wanted to laugh at that point of time, he told me maybe his wife speak too softly and we cant hear it. There was like so many people over there at that time, he was acting like some big shots just because he was older than us. He still got the cheek to tell me he don't really know what happened, thought it was my fault cause i told his wife off. They was there trying to embarrass us and when i speak up it became my fault? I mean, if they really have no faults, why apologise immediately when they heard i said i wanted to make a report to the police?
By doing this doesn't everything back-fired at them?
He shooked my hand after that. Saying, young man, i can see you're a nice guy. And he apologised again. LOL!
Weird old man. I ignored that bitch though. Lols. But well, not blaming that old man, he stood up for his wife afterall. peace!

Went back home after going to dennis's house to help mummy burn the house things for the ancestors. Can't really be bothered though.
My dad was a adopted child. My granny came over to my house and told my mom when i was at primary school. She told my mom that my dad was a adopted child in front of me. She didn't really treat me like her grandson when i was young. And now my mom expects me to burn all this kind of shits to some ancestor who i don't know and did shits to me when i was a child?
She treated me better only when i was at sec 1. When i refused to go over to her house during CNY.
Thinking by coming over to my house and giving my mom a 2k to buy books and stuffs for me will make me forgives her?
She humiliated me when i was a kid. Regretting everything only when i didn't go over to her house during CNY? Knowing that i was the eldest boy among all her grandchildren?
I mean, she didn't gave me a good impression since i was a kid. I heard from mom that when i was born, she refused to carry me until my grandma asked her to carry me. She used to tell me
"You come for what?" when my dad brought me down to her place when i was young. Even at CNY she'll say that. She lost one of her red packet which have a $200 inside during one of the CNY and the first thing she do is to call my mom and ask we got take that red packet or not.
After doing all this kind of shits and my mom still expect me to help her burn those shits to my so called ancestors? They can't be counted as my ancestors anyway. I don't even know who is my real granny since my dad was an adopted child.
I don't even know if they're dead or they're alive somewhere.
I can't really be bothered bout anything in regards of them.
They didn't do any part being a grandparent,
and so i believe i won't be doing any part as a grand child too.
In fact, I really hope that they are not my grandparents.
Its really a disgrace to have this kind of grandparents.





signing off @1:53 AM