If Chance Was Given Easily...

2010-05-13T23:41:00.002+08:00

Yah la yah lah. fuck. it's forever my fault la.
fucking tards, dont know anything then dont fucking anyhow scold me lah.
Everything only will be my fault. WTF you want me to tell you? WTF you want to know?
KNOW SO MUCH FOR FUCK? YOU GUYS ALSO CANNOT FUCKING DO ANYTHING. YOU THINK I FUCKING WANT THIS KINDA OF OUTCOME IS IT. You guys are just my fucking parents. Sometimes you guys got to learn what you all should care and what you shouldnt. Ya la ya la. whatever also my fault. i played with other people ok? fuck. Think i really want to forgo a 1yr r/s like that? GIVE ME MY OWN FUCKING SPACE LA. YOU GUYS ARE FUCKING HOLDING ME SO TIGHT THAT I BARELY HAVE A SPACE TO BREATHE. DO WHAT ALSO NOT HAPPY. YOU GUYS SAY WHAT. I FOLLOW. THEN WHEN I FOLLOW ALREADY YOU GUYS FUCKING FIND NEW THINGS TO SAY ME. THINK WHAT. VERY FUN ISSIT. FUCKED UP DAY. fuck it.

2010-04-13T00:06:00.002+08:00

I so long never blog. so i shall blog.
Craps and Rubbish.
I am lazy to think.
And my stomach pain, I haven't go to the toilet to do my business.
My internet is down, so i'm tabbing to others net.
And the good news for today is, It's my 13th month with my darling girlfriend today ! xD
And she's going to cook hor fun later ! xD
Blehs, even if it's burnt, I'll still shove them into my mouth xD haha !
okays, that's it for today xD my stomach hurts D:
我要去大便.
我的肚子痛.
我不能tahan了.
xD

2010-02-01T01:09:00.002+08:00

Pretty lazy to read back all the post.
So i decided to post a new one since i didnt update this blog often already.
Wondering how in the world i managed to type so much in the past.
Pretty much have the talent to be a writer or something.
Bet someone feel like puking after reading this part.
Stuck here for quite long, dont really know how to continue :D
But i know what else should i continue with already. :D

1/2/2010 ; 1:20am
I promise you I'll bring you everywhere i go :D

Dont say i everytime forget. I made it in time this time round :D

2010-01-24T01:03:00.003+08:00

3rd time i am posting !
Hope blogger dont give me anymore bullshit error !

Girl slept till around 2 today,

Idiot, wake up le, scold me .
Say why cant i wake up earlier ! She also luhhs !

Met girl at bugis :D bus-ed to changi villiage :D

First thing we do once we reach is buy the goreng pisang :D

SO NICEE !

Then went to line up for the famous nasi lemak :D

But wtf ! It sold out, and what make thing worst is it sold out when it reaches us,

So we didnt get to eat D:

Ate Hor fun and stingray :D

The stingray is spicy D:

After eating we bused to tamps and bused to yishun!

BABYGIRL SENT ME TO MRT STATION TODAY ! SO HAPPY ! LOVE YOU !

2010-01-17T23:11:00.001+08:00

Woke up so late today :D hunney baby too ! :D haha !
Went to meet dexdex to take cd and dinner :D haha !
Then jiu go home accompany baby do work :D I'm such a good boy :D haha !
BABY JIAYOU OKAY? <3

Learning how to use photoshop now ! cs4 :D
Awww, It's so damn complicated ! D:

2010-01-17T00:41:00.003+08:00

Brain dead :D so it wont be a long post :D blehs,
Weets ! bus-ed to tamps with hun :D Shopped awhile and eat.
WOW ! we ate alot can ?? Until i barely can add anything inside anymore ! D:
Tsk ! thanks for all the treat hun ! :D
After that went to yishun :D Ate Chong Pang NasiLemak :D then Tou Huay =x haha !
Walked to mrt , haha ! really, hun, we dont really have to think on where to go this and that, cause even without any plans , we could have lots of fun too :D Making both of us so high at the end of the day :D haha !
Sent hun to yck jiu go home le :D blehs ! <3

2010-01-16T02:24:00.002+08:00

Promised to give you a sweet post :D
Well, You asked me once about my ideal girlfriend right? :D
Blehs, You ARE my ideal girlfriend, :D
Well, Long hair, Big eyes, Femine, Sexy lips *Although it have 4 scars now, but it's still sexy okays* , Speak good english, sweet, pretty, cute, Gives in, Makes me her everything. Dont you think you fit into everyone of them? :D
OMG ! When typing all these, I had the flashback when you play with your gummy bear in webcam :D I'm becoming a puddle of water ~ Melting ~
Although we had quarrels times to times, But i always feels kind of happy when you humour me :D It's the same when i humours you :D
Best at giving you that innocent voice :D You're best at giving me that cute voice of yours :D
Makes me feels so OMG! I WANNA HUG YOU NOW ! :D
When you sleeps :D I dont mind just stay over there looking at you :D
Guess that's the most innocent side of you :D
But still! There are times you scold me when you sleeps D:
For nuts D: Guai Guai Tio Meh Luhh ~ Tsk ! =x
But you'll humour me afterwards :D So thats better :D
If you dont humour me hor ! I FPQ at you then you know :D
And And And ! So cute ! whenever we quarrel, we wont shout or scream at each other =x
We'll only raise voice ! LOL! haha ! so funny ! it's like, Who shout first jiu who lose =x haha !

For example, If i shout at you, then you'll cry or sth, then i'll humour you :D equals to i lose ! =x tsk ! A very hao sheng de couple uhhs :D can do anything just to win ! haha !

Tmr going to ride bicycle :D blehs ! Hope you dont take 30mins to start ahhs ! :D haha ! And And And ! IDC HOR ! I WANT TO SEE SUNSET ! :D blehs ! ILY HUNNEY ! :D

2010-01-16T01:29:00.003+08:00

Babygirl came over in the morning :D
Watched DouNiuYaoBuYao awhile, then that silly girl went to sleep =x
haha ! As usuals , Both of us slept in the end :D haha !
Woke up at ard 4 ,
Went to bath, thought baby would wake up,
But she still sleep ! Then watched DouNiuYaoBuYao alone D:
Until she wakes up :D haha ! Cooked AlwaysMeeGoreng for her :D
Blehs ! Princess siiol! :D Feeded her :D
Then went to bugis :D haha !
Shopping :D Find her Shirt =x
Like so hard to find siiol =x But we found anyways :D
AND OMG ! HUNNEY ! YOU LOOK SO PRETTY IN THE DRESS CAN ! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D
ADDICTIVE ! =x TSK !
Bought her shirt at iluma, went to eat, jiu go home le :D
Now helping hunney with work ! tsk ! she bully me D: opsy ! love you hun! :D

2010-01-15T00:40:00.002+08:00

13/1/2010

10/18 months with baby girl already :D spent it normally though, :D some asshole told me this, "Legs go away lah, Hand dont put here, Face dont stick on my back" Whad a UNROMANTIC girlfriend =x tsk ! blehs ! jokin :D dont pekcek ahhs ! :D Quarreled at night, but i guess we're okay already :D Once again :D FOR NUTS !

14/1/2010

Woke up and opened comp, saw someone's blog, tsk ! made me unhappy for awhile , i swear, that is for once, i dont feel like texting, meeting and everything. Saw wrong things at the wrong time , wrong mood. LOL ! Someone asked me to "test market" =x tsk ! First time in my life, i saw a girlfriend ask the boyfriend go "test market" =x tsk ! damn unique :D haha ! Hun ah, there will be only one reason if i ever go "test market". It will happen when it's over between us :D Be it i made that decision or you. And PLEASE ! NO SUCH THING AS TEST MARKET THEN FAITHFUL HOR ! You dont anyhow make the thrend yourself =x tsk !

PS: I never delete anything :D DONT QUARREL WITH ME AH !

2010-01-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

Shall start off with my weird dream again,

Dreamt that i woke up, then somehow i bought snowflakes, the big and small packet,

But i didnt get to eat it inside the dream D:

idk why also D:

After i woke up, realise that baby is very sick !

OMG ! fever ! D:

feel like going down to visit her cans ! but she dont allow D:

HUNNEY ! TAKE CARESOKAY! D:

I'm so excited about my V day present ! omg ! had a sneek preview from hunney last night !

SO PRETTY RIGHT? OMG ! MAKE ME SO ALL EXCITED ABOUT MY PHOTO ALBUM! :D:D

2010-01-10T02:42:00.002+08:00

I had the most expensive prawn in my life =x
A prawn that cost me 14.50 =x
haha ! went to bottle tree park to prawn fishing with hunney :D
blehs ! she so lucky ! caught her first prawn in her life withing 15 mins =x
i caught my first prawn in my life in the last 5 mins ! omg ! i so lousy =x
BUT MINE IS BIGGER!! PAPA PRAWN !
HUNNEY CAUGHT MAMA PRAWN ! :D:D:D:D:D
upload the picture when hunney send me :D
Hunney called me yayapapaya that day D:
cause i keep saying about that papa prawn throughout the day ! haha ! <3
i cannot imagine if i spend 14.50 and catch nothing ! i'll burn bottle tree park srly man. =x
But it was fun though :D haha !
so excited when i caught my very first prawn :D
A PAPA PRAWN SOMEMORE ! OMG !
BABY IS GOING TO CALL ME YAYAPAPAYA AGAIN! :D OMGOMGOMG

the next day, baby had open house :D
Sent her to school, went to meet gin then fetch her back from school :D
such a sweeeeeet boyfriend :D haha !
had steamboat for supper ! :D
omg ! we actually finished all the food and still hungry !
2 pigpig ! :D but idw to eat the prawn =x
I had a PAPA PRAWN the day before already :D haha ! <33333 loves ! <333

2010-01-05T00:05:00.002+08:00

Baby came over for awhile during her break just now :D

Came over and watch xia yi zan xin fu tgt :D

tsk ! she watch until she tired then went to sleep =x

actually, i was not planning to sleep, but see that pig sleep until like one baby,

make me bth also =x hugged that baby to sleep :D

After that she went back to school ; without her ezylink card ! haha ! pidpid =x

Went to yck to fetch her :D

After that went to woodland to fix my phone =x

we saw the witch there ! tsk !

baby say she scared scared =x

haha ! later the witch change her to dog =x haha !

but before she can do that, BABY! FLOOD HER WITH REDS ! =x

我们臭死那个老巫婆！

Went to eat , tsk ! the auntie bluff me D: i say i want miso soup, she give me normal de D:

After that jiu send baby to orchard :D haha !

Not really very sweet , but :D 3word, 8 letter 1 meaning :D

baby,

i love you <3

2010-01-03T17:24:00.002+08:00

posted for HunneyXT :D

thanks for playing blackshot with me even when you're the one getting stabbed all the time :D
thanks for bringing the BIG BIRD to my place and let me hug :D
*wont torture that bird okays? wont put on the floor de lahhs :D dont worry :D*
thanks for giving me such a fun time shopping together :D

Haha, You dont have to thanks me for waiting for you outing :D
Cause within this few days, you'll be the one waiting for me outside already :D
Let's try very shirt in every shop !
I'll change let you see okay?
See which one nice nice :D
You dont mind waiting for me changing every shirt in every shop right?? :D
haha !
I say first =x I got no sex appeal =x But i am cute ! tsk ! i hope so... =x
And wahhs, you want to cover me from head to toe ahhs, like that i must go buy mask lerhhs =x
You must cover ahs :D But not the face of cause =x i want to let every guy on earth to envy me :D wahahahas ! :D
And you pigpig ! Wake up le jiu hear you having headache D:
Worried to the max cans? D: Takecares abit alright? :D
I want to marry a healthy HunneyXT lehhs !
haha ! and of cause ! lots and lots of HunneyBabies ! omg !
Lets make a soccer team okay? :D haha ! HomeTeam M =x ahha ! <333
love you hunney ! <3

2010-01-03T00:16:00.003+08:00

Shopping day with girlfriend :D

Never really shopped like that with hunney like that before ! haha !

But it was lots of fun~

Almost sang at every shop,

cause they got different songs,

dont know how to sing also anyhow sing =x tsk !

haha ! My childish side of me =x tsk ! <3

haha ! omg, hunney, you have such a cutie boyfriend :D

haha ! hunney is going to play blackshot with me ! OMG !

stab her later =x tsk ! now baby more noob than me,

who knows? afew weeks later she's the one stabbing me. =x

haha ! but i'm so excited =x baby first time playing online games with me =x haha !

Ate at burger king =x AND I OFFICIALLY ANNOUNCE THAT BABY IS CHI KU PAH QUEEN.

she rawks at that man. haha ! but it's still funny seeing her eating 6sticks of poky at 1 go. =x

haha ! <3>

haha ! but phone no money le D:

haiis, poor boyfriend D: i tolerate ! 2 more days !

LG CRYSTAL ! I'M COMING !

SHIRTS ! I'M COMING !

SHOPPING DAY WITH BABY AGAIN ! I'M EXCITED !!!!

haha ! <3

edited; 4.09am :D

Played BlackShot-ed with hunney !

Baby! lousy ! <33>

tsk ! or because no massage ! =x

anyway, dont unhappy larhhs, let you stab stab my pigu next time =x let you take revenge :D

loves ! <3>

with loves,

HunneyM ! <3>

2010-01-02T03:26:00.002+08:00

tsk ! so greedy, keh siao sad sad, want a post =x haha !

nahh, here is your post :D

you pidpid ! people want you to rest, you angry with people. tsk !

but i really worried bout you kay? <3

i can see how terrible you felt just now,

but you never see how terrible i felt seeing you so terrible just now D:

but the good thing is you're feeling better already :D

haha !

can watch wujiandao, delay sleeping time ! =x

now still want to make my face cramp!

ask me to smile so big when typing D:

my face really going to cramp le siiol.

i hope i dont go to bed like that ; tsk !

and , i hope tweety will enjoy his stay here :D haha !

hope slyvester dont eat him up. haha ! he never got a chance anyway,

if can eat, long long inside teevee jiu eat le right? <3>

people tell you face going cramp le , you tell people good ! tsk !

babygirl, you good ! <3>

like that lahhs, you cui me lerhs. :D haha ! loves !

dear,

iloveyou <3

Goodbye 2009 ; Welcome 2010 :D

2010-01-01T18:37:00.002+08:00

So fast, 2009 ended already. lot's of ups and downs.
It's really very fast, just in a blink of eye, come to think of it, we've been quarreling so much already. Not leaving out the stupid stuffs we did together.
Wondering if 2009 ends is a good thing or not.
But i cant really be bothered about it already.
I know a bad start doesn't means a bad year.
I know we'll still be able to enjoy 2010.
I still cant tell if 2009 is a good year or bad year.
But overall, i guess it's a good one .
cause i had you, A bad ending doesnt means a bad year.
Although there are quarrels, But still ! you'll still humour me isnt it?
Even if we had cold wars, we'll still be okay at the end of the day :D
2010 is no different :D we'll still be okay at the end of the day :D
we'll do much more stupid stuffs at 2010,
we'll go more places we never go before at 2010 .
like duhh ~ i hope we dont quarrel more though ! tsk !
good thing can more, bad thing, tsk ! best if it doesnt happen =x

2009-12-30T01:43:00.002+08:00

Just woke up :D
Shall start off with my weird dream ! :D
Dreamt that hunney and me went to some macdonalds at some ulu place and eat.
Then idk why, somehow the macdonald have tv.
So we leave our food on the table and watched tv =x
After around 2mins, we look at our food, then there are alot alot of ants eating our food. D:
HERE COMES THE MAIN POINT !
Hunney baby was shocked ! But she still picked up the burger, pieces by pieces throw them on the table to "shoo" the ants off, after "shooing" the ants off, she continue to eat the burger !
OMG ! Idk this dream is to put at which category, gross, disgusting or funny.
But it's damn unbelievable, HUNNEY ACTUALLY DID THAT INSIDE MY DREAM !
After that i jiu wake up le, due to shock. =x No lahhs, i woke up late. D:
I told hunney that i'm going to wake up at 12 to accompany her but i woke up at 115 instead.

HUNNEY ! I'm sorry D: <-- (public apology) But i still luvluv you okay ? <3>

Met up with hunney today :D

Went down to bugis to meet hunney :D

She waited for me at bus stop ! so sweet right? although i took mrt =x tsk !

After that we went down to find nat :D haha ! she with her da jie at shop . haha !

Talked and laughed ! Darn, baby, why your boyfriend so farnie de ahhs =x tsk !

After that we went to find find my phone :D

And i aim dao le ! <3>

haha ! then we went to eat astons ! tsk ! the queue so long,

本大爷go inside le purposely eat slow slow, let other people wait long long.

Sidenote ; 本小姐included also :D haha !

we eat until the queue become quite short siiol . tsk !

but eat until damn full!

After that shopping awhile jiu go back home lerh ! <3>

Hun, saw your lj before going online to chat with you :D

haha ! yeah, these few days i keep make you angry D:

sorry yeah? <3>

will still have ways to make you happy :D

isnt that good? :D haha ! loves !

and 笨小姐，本大爷 want goodnight text tonight, idc !

say want give me morning text, so long le, still havent recieve, today you send me goodnight msg ! tsk !

爱你哦！<3

2009-12-29T02:30:00.002+08:00

HUNNEY BABY! ILOVEYOU! YOU THIS PUSSYCAT ! <3

小花猫，

瞄瞄瞄，

晚上睡不着。

think dao like that only, think dao le then i continue okay? <3 haha !

2009-12-28T01:41:00.004+08:00

Post dedicated to my guai guai hunneybaby :D
Finally packed room le uhhs hunney !
tsk ! so messy ! can actually find your phone under your table =x
haha ! hunney ! idw to find myself under your table at any time ahhs ! <3
anw, hunney , you're so cute can! trying to distract me with snacks !
omg ! you know i cant eat, still eat in front of me D:
haiyer ! but seriously ! you're really cute ttm can ! <3
omg! not everytime have the chance to see the childish side of you in webcam ! <3 haha !
back to topic, you ahhs, speak from your mouth, not your heart ! <3 haha
but awww ~ too bad, your boyfriend knows whad you're thinking ! <3 haha ! <3
ask me to go aways is from your mouth only,
deep inside , i know you want me to stick close close to you right ! like superglue like that ! haha !
but if you not like that, jiu not my gf le ! haha ! <33
sidenote ; hunney, after your snacks, you still want to use bread and "xi ying" me ahhs D:
i'm getting hungry alr D: LOL!
<3 anw ! we're having crayfish for steamboat ! <3

we shall go find recipe kkay? <3 align="left">i cook, you wash, my forever dishwasher ! haha ! dont pekchek with me for calling you that ahhs <3 align="left">love you hunney ! talking on phone time !!! <3

2009-12-26T00:01:00.003+08:00

Christmas is 1 mins over :D haha !
Spent my christmas and christmas eve with hunney this year <3
we steamboat inside room room and baked cookie !
:D cookie was a big big success ! done on the day before christmas eve :D haha ! steamboat was fun ! done on christmas eve ! :D first time steamboat inside room ! tom yam soup ! :D omg ~ haha ! before christmas day itself made present together with hunney ! we made each other's present ! haha ! damn cool cans ! oh my ~ haha ! i took longer though : haha !
Although christmas was a pretty simple day, it was still fun ! :D
we cooked again :D fried chicken and cook kuay teow !
i'm the chef and hunney is the washer ! haha ! nice nice !
after that had dinner with family :D blehs, shant blog too long ! hun sleeping on my leg leg now :D loves ! <3333

2009-12-23T00:07:00.002+08:00

went to 约会 with baby today :D

went down to jurong point ! :D

shopping and play :D haha !

ate KFC =x

the black pepper chicken is damn spicy cans！omg!

yay! baby bought slyvester for me ! haha !

谢谢你宝贝！<3

then after that jiu go imm and shop shop awhile =x haha !

hunney, idw to pick anyone else ! 我只要你一个！

sit bus to send baby home ! she sleep talk!

haha ! eat my finger ! bite me then still ahem ! =x haha !

still knock my head on the mirror =x

oh my ~ so violent =x

but i like ~ haha !

really like it when hunney lie on my shoulder :D haha ! xoxo !

love you hunney !

2009-12-21T23:20:00.002+08:00

today went to meet dear .
went to ikea at tamps. eat meatball , nice nice :D
she slap me inside the bus D: complain complain ! not on purpose de though . haha =x
pain pain D: after that we went to ikea to shop shop awhile :D pictures pictures ! then dear head giddy D: faster go to tamps and slack .
eat at tamps then went down to dg :D after that jiu go home lerh. =x

hunney ! idk how to blog blog like past lahhs. ! but i guess i blogged like that in the past? =x
haha ! love you girl ! <3

2009-12-21T00:43:00.002+08:00

这几天我真的玩得很开心。
我看到了宝贝最性感的一面。
而且她是在我们大巴士的时候做的。
吓倒我一大跳！
别担心，你永远是在我心目中最性感的宝贝好吗？
还有！我回家的时候没有看别的妹妹好吗？
她们一点都不起眼。还是我的宝贝漂亮。
就算她们起眼也是她们的事。
我有我的宝贝了。哈哈！
坐一趟巴士也有可能会累的。
尤其是跟我一起坐的时候。
不是吗宝贝。
累到我躺在你的肩膀上。
可是，那是超舒服得好吗？
我看，如果你没有叫我起来，我回不舍得起来的哦！
躺倒你的肩膀断！哈哈！
只可惜，我们没有拍很多照片。
明天要拍照多的好吗？
好久没有拍好多好多的照片了。
用华文blog也是蛮好玩的麻。
第一次哦~

宝贝！我爱你！

2009-12-13T19:22:00.002+08:00

Happy 9th month anniversary hunney :D

Although we cant celebrate tgt :D But i still have my ways to make you happy ! <3

There'll be 10th , 11th, 12, 1year and it'll continues :D

It's not difficult to make you happy afterall :D

2009-12-12T01:28:00.001+08:00

Picture of the day. WTF?!

It's not everyday, i got the chance to take epic snapshot like that.

This is EPIC ! WTF ! :D

But Although is epic, this silly picture will be able to make silly people smile :D

LOVES ! <3

AirPort Story :D

2009-12-10T22:46:00.002+08:00

BabyGirl, See there :D

*Points Middle Finger*

Hunney, Whad you do just now uhhs..

Ops, I pointed Middle Finger.. =x

Li Gong Simi !

Haha ! So Funny :D

OMG ! DAMN FUNNY CAN !

Go and die lah you =x

GIRL ! CHILL! DONT FUCKED UP KKAYS ! <333 SMILE ! :D

2009-12-09T23:15:00.003+08:00

Short Sweet and Simple post :D

BabyGirl, Even if you become ugly, fat, short, old everything,

BabyBoy will still loves you <3>

I promise ! <3>

2009-12-09T14:48:00.004+08:00

Dear BabyGirl,
Was told strictly to blog properly, so i guess this is "Properly"? Babygirl is caught with chicken pox . I "Poxed" her with that . Wonder how she look like with spots all over. Take a few pictures and show me okay? :D Ah ! Someone is suppose to tell me her blog today :D But i guess now is not the correct timing :D After you recover alright honey ? :D I've got nuts to say about you. Check temperature also lazy . 7 mins later also shuang =x silly enough uhhs. Promised baby after she recovers will bring her to ecp to ride bicycle and see sunset ! :D haha ! To prevent i forget =x i made lots of notes =x haha ! Scared siiol =x Short post :D tonight posting again lehhs =x haha ! love you girl <3 muacks !

No one knows how i felt

2009-12-06T21:57:00.001+08:00

First of all !
I want to announce a date.
5/12/2009 !
Someone asked me to go home and raised her voice at me D:
But i think i somehow scolded back also =x
Unique ways of expressing love =x Correct? PEABRAIN !

Like always :D
BabyBoy picked wrong timing to say things again.
Things went wrong halfway.
NewMoon Sucks ! Cause i like understand only 5 parts. =x
Babygirl will know why <3
But have to praise my 4 eye-bimbo babygirl !
cause she never fall asleep !
haha ! the show is way too touching =x we 2 actually cried :D
I cant believe she wanted to change to a vampire just because of edward =x

I guess i am the one being over paranoid .
I didnt want things to become this way.
But i guess i blew it up.
Cause of some dumb actions.
But i promise, i wont do it again.
Even if it leads to quarrel, i'll still be truthful.
I've already made up my mind already.
Cause i know you wont dont want me :D
Darling BabyGirl :D
Although we have a unique way to express our love ,
But i swear, i'll love you wholeheartedly and faithfully !
I dont care whad other people say, cause they dont know a thing.
In no position to make comments unless they have been my girlfriend before isnt it? <3

YOU THIS 4 EYE-BIMBO, FREAK, BASTARD, IDIOT, FUCKER, SUCKER, BOOKWORM , NERD, RETARD, DUMBO, PEABRAIN, SMELLY DOG, STINKO, ASSHOLE, CHEAPO, COCK EYE, MOUNTAIN TURTLE, FLAT CHESTED GIRL, DICKHEAD ! ILOVEYOU WHOLEHEARTEDLY :D CAUSE YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING ! <333

2009-11-27T02:12:00.002+08:00

having chicken pox, look like some zombie D:

dots every where D: backside also got D:

oh myyy ~~ haha ! but it's getting better already :D

i really hope that i can meet up with babygirl soon !

i want my steamboat D: my steamboat like so near that day D:

stupid doctor D: say whad chicken pox ! he and his suay mouth D:

really chicken pox siiol D: if not when visiting him, i'll be eating steamboat D:

my golden mushroom !!! D::: omggg ! idc, when i recover, we're going to eat alot alot alot kkay?

i want to eat all the stuffs i missed these few days. i want to play the stuffs i didnt get to play these few days. *idk what* and of cause :D i want to hug and kiss baby to cover up these few days ! haha ! so shall just hug and kiss you the whole day kkay? in between will have break :D

drink water. if not no saliva =x haha ! <333

PS : i never see other girl girl D: i was bloggin ! haha ! <333333

2009-11-09T02:17:00.002+08:00

Saturday

Met up with baby and went to bugis :D

She went to get her denim jacket :D

A nice jacket uhhs <3

Walked around bugis and played alot :D

Bought the duck wing thingy, went to playground and eat :D

Baby say it was very famous =x LOL! bluff people derhhs =x so hard, so spicy. =x

I believe she took back her words =x right baby? <3

After eating the wings then we took picture :D omg, i'm finding myself more and more handsome lehhs. =x how? =x haha !

After that went to meet Baby's clique :D ate tgt at the noodle house :D so funny :D haha !

Was quite full already =x cause we ate sushi and kfc before going to meet clique =x haha !

but i managed to pour the noodles inside my stomach though :D haha !

then we went to starbucks and sit down to chat :D LOL!

* the white chocolate mocha was very very nice ! *

then went to playground to find zy :D

played games tgt :D haha ! pretty fun :D

after that jiu go home lerhhs :D

quarreled with daddye :D idw to talk bout it :D spoils mood :D haha ! <33

but although i quarreled with daddy, but i'm still glad that i managed to meet baby's clique :D

i know baby is happy too :D i know she enjoyed her day, cause i really did :D

darling, certain things isnt as hard as we expected as long as effort are being spent. isnt it? :D

loves <3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

2009-10-30T01:09:00.003+08:00

Awesome baby sent me a extremely sweet text that made me a puddle of water today :D

But baby just asked me to go and die, called me sucker and ask me go away D:

haiiiiiissssss..... want to give you a sweet sweet post de... but.. no more ! who ask you ! =x

Joking larhhs :D how to not give you this awesome baby a sweet sweet post lehhs :D

After that sweet sweet text :D

You know? Falling in love was the 2nd best thing in my life :D Finding you was the first :D

I mean, It's really by chance we got to know each other :D I'm so grateful to my playfulness :D

Because of my playfullness, i asked shawn for your number just to disturb him . And from there, i got to know you, slowly, i fell in love for you.

Boo ! you had a boyfriend that time :D haha !

But i'm grateful to my patience :D cause i waited for you :D

Forever that sweet to you :D make you fell for me :D awesome little boy you have here :D

* a round of applause for him *

I've never regreted waiting for you . Not in the past , not in the present and neither it will be in the future :D Cause i know my little girl is worth me waiting :D 10 mins, 1 hour , 1 day, 1 year or maybe 10 years :D

Baby you rushing me le D: cut short :D continue abit by abit :D haha !

Baby, you are the reason why I have sleepless nights. You are the reason why I tend to hold my pillow tight. It's you that I'm thinking when I lay down at night. And you are the reason I can't sleep without saying goodnight. GOODNIGHTS BABY ! <3>

Will not be able to text you :D give you your good night message here :D <3>

2009-10-15T04:13:00.002+08:00

Tuesday ;

Wifey came over to my place,

Went to fetch martin. :D

After that went to meet dexter , gin and zhuzhu for Ktv at katong. :D

Then went back home chit chat till 7am ! ( WOW)

Slept till 330 next afternoon :D

Wednesday ;

Woke up at 330,

Went to meet huiyun with wifey at 969 bus stop :D

Met joan at tamps :D

Went down to chalet ! F16-06 ! I Rmb !

It was fun :D Poly mates are friendly even though it was like only the 3rd time i met them.

( and we never really talk much ) :D

Had fun tgt with baby, joan and THY !

Joan the suaku =x Automatic tap !

THY the guan yin mah :D haha !

It's pretty easy to communicate with them ,

It's pretty obvious some of them are spending the effort :D haha !

He wont see this, but.

Happy 17th birthday dilli :D :D

Regards sent from MELVIN ! :D

Our Story, Little Girl and the Little Boy, AKA ; Beauty and the Beast :D

2009-10-07T03:40:00.003+08:00

Short, Sweet and Simple :D

Little Boy Loves Little Girl :D

Little Boy Miss Little Girl D:

Little Boy is Dying to hug Little Girl D:

Story of a little boy and little girl :D

2009-10-05T00:23:00.005+08:00

Today, little boy was somehow happy he opened up to little girl :D
Little boy was in fact quite down for the past few days.
He thought little girl was unhappy and the reason was him.
And somehow, he had a feeling that little girl is beginning to keep things from him D:
Little boy chose to keep quiet until today though.
Opened up to little girl, and little boy actually got disappointed for a few times.
When little boy can't really change for little girl.
Little girl have been changing for little boy, somehow or rather.
Little boy appreciate it. But it's really quite disappointing when little boy can't change much for little girl. And especially when he knows that she'll be unhappy.
It's quite disappointing when little girl is unhappy about little boy, and little boy wont be able to cheer her up.
It's also quite disappointing to know that when little boy is unable to cheer little girl up, he'll have to let other people help him to cheer little girl up .
It's also quite disappointing when little boy already knows that he's not the most ideal guy in every girl :D haha ! * he knows this a long time ago already though*
Little boy is not having low self esteem. But he just think that being with him wont have any future =x
Having a sweet tongue, Able to melt people's heart won't bring anyone anywhere.
Little boy sometimes even have the thought that if little girl is able to find a boy boy better than him he wont hold back =x * Little girl ! Dont be angry if you see this okay? ! *
Little girl said she sometimes think that she'll be far off better without little boy :D
Haha ! Little boy won't deny the fact actually :D
Is it a mistake from the start that little boy made little girl loves him? D:
How long can this story actually continues?
Like whad little girl said, How long more can the magnet last?
Little boy dont dare to think so much :D
Little boy dont want to be troubled of all these and spoil his mood :D
Little boy only want to talk to little girl now without any quarrels :D
Little boy asked little girl why love little boy when little girl can find other boy boy far off better than little boy.
Little girl haven't answered though.
But little boy love little girl because little girl's smiles are way too addictive to him.
Her hugs brings all the warmth he needed to him.
Her kisses gave him all the assurance he needed.
Although little boy knows he wont be able to know the answer he wanted to know ,
But he still hopes that he's able to know it one day :D

little boy ;

2009-09-30T01:03:00.002+08:00

i love little boy ; <3
little boy, do rest well & get well soon ;
meeting little boy in less than 24 hours <3
i miss you , little boy ! :D

little boy , xoxo !

xt loves you , this little boy <3

im an idiot

2009-09-22T17:16:00.001+08:00

IM JUST AN IDIOT :D HAHA !
OFF I GO TO SHAVE !

2009-09-10T03:15:00.002+08:00

Grandma went out to that damn cruise again,

Seriously, i'm still thinking what's so good about that ship ! =x

She should bring grandpa or some other boyfriend she had outside to the cruise,

Then do a reply of Titanic there since she loves the cruise so much !

"You jump, I jump !"

Lets start from MONDAY !

Baby went to meet clique for kbox (: while i went to school (:

Baby came down to find me during my break ~

Oh my ! So Sweet can! ♥

And love bought muffins, sushi and my fav ; white choc for me ! OMG !

haha ! she's just so loved by me can ! (:

Had 2 papers at physics class =x

It really seems like i have to buck up on physics alr.

Especially when the teacher skipped 5 lessons of physics out of 15 for me. LOL!

After the papers went down to find baby (:

She was fast asleep !
Wanted to give her a surprise by hugging her from behind (:

But well, It seems like i was the one being surprised ; assuring (:

Right after i hugged love from her back,

She hold my hand tightly and with lots and lots of confidence without looking back (:

Best hug i can ever ask for (:

Just a simple hug, made me over the moon and thousands of words and feelings behind it !

OH MY GAWD ~

Tuesday , Wednesday

How addictive can baby be?

Oh my gawd, simply addictive to me ! ♥

Some expression can only be given at some point of time,

Some expression must be so treasured because you cant see them everytime !

OH MY GAWD !

Especially those that you do without thinking !

OMG ! BABY IS SIMPLY ADDICTIVE TO ME !

Baby,

PS : I admit i lost the objective part =x LOL!

2009-09-07T03:48:00.002+08:00

Friday

Mentoring (: The kids are simply cute !

LOL! It's really fun with them, although have to watch out what you speak and so on,

but they are awesome (: It's really fun talking and communicating with them (:

I know who's my mentee already, the new mentee =x some indian name,

Oh my, i hope i can communicate with him eh, i dont know how to speak tamil after all ~

someone teach me please ~

And i was called a kingkong by one of the mentee, oh my ~

Learnt my lesson when i called her a gorilla, I got kicked by her. LOL!

This coming friday would be the outing to animal farm (: i'm looking forward to it (: haha !

Went to Tiong Bahru to have that cheapo steamboat with wifey after mentoring (:

We ordered the chicken set, But somehow my ingredient became a jungle.

Everything was vegetables, =x healthy !

After the food we went to the park area.

Played swing for awhile (:

Then went to sit down.

Wifey taught me CANTONESE ! 1-10 !

LOL! best ! had difficulty remembering though. tsktsk.

but i remembered at the end of the day ! haha !

Then wifey wanted to eat "bing shit" ! *ice cream*

LOL! sounds funny, funnier when i spell it out ! LOL!

walked to the mini mart to buy rainbow ! (: haha !

sweet sweet wifey accompanied me to DG (:

Thanks wifey ! <3>

Saturday

Went to school ,

Wifey brought food for me during break !

Egg, cheese, meat, and noodles cooked by mummy (:

baby cooked the egg, cheese and meat ! (:

Nice Nice ! (: really ! wifey got the potential to go work at some restaurant (:

After class we wanted to watch movie, but everywhere was fully booked,

so we change plan to Astons ! (: Went to the park at amk after that (:

haha ! sat down and chatted !

home-d after that (:

Sunday !

<3>

Went to JP to do J's birthday cake (:

i cant believe i drew it ! haha ! not bad, got potential to be a artist (:

haha ! it's pretty good for a first timer like me . =x cause i'm very clumsy =x

honey bought pau for me ! (: nice nice (: haha ! after that came over to my place (:

left cake inside fridge and ... yupp.. sleep (:

woke up late and baby cabbed down .. =x tsktsk..

HAPPY 19 BIRTHDAY ANW JOAN ! (: haha !

lovelove,

i'm sure very lucky to have a girlfriend like you (:

i won't ask for anything else (:

cause i only want you ! <3

I know there'll be a 3 months deadline for every 3 months (:

Fret not, I'll always be there at that deadline (:

I wont D5 you anymore (:

First time is i naive, Second time is i dumb, If there is a Third time, I'll be a bastard ! =x

Although i know you always say MNLY, IHY, IDLY (:

But i know you never once mean it (: And i have 100% confident in that (:

Although there are times i might talk louder by a little bit ,

But you knows that i'll never scold you <3

I'll never scold you for no reason , neither would i scold you because of stupid reasons (:

No matter how many times you say MNLK, IHY, IDLY

Too bad ~

ZXT, i tell you ahhs, no matter how much YNLM, YHM, YDLM

I'll still love you,

When you say MNLY, too bad, i like you

When you say IHY and IDLY , too bad, i love you

When you say i'm going to ditch you, too bad, i know i won't anymore.

I love you wifey, ZXT ! (: <3

2009-08-25T21:51:00.002+08:00

I guess the picture behind is down?

Shall wait for love to make for me again (:

hehe.

Anw, had been given my assurance these few days .

This are my assurance to you (:

Since sept 4 is coming,

I wont d5 you again.

You always hold my hand so tight.

You never let go of my hands

You can make my heart melts with you lips.

When I'm sad, you take the pain away with a joke

you always find a new way to "WoW" me

you always look deep into my eyes

you always know what to say when I get mad at you

you say the cutest things over and over and never gets old

you stare at me as if I am the most handsome guy in the world!

When Im feeling the worst, you make me feel the happiest

The way we play stupid games, but you play anyways

How you love me like no other

How you forgive me when I do wrong

How times it seems like we're the only ones here

How you would do anything I say

Srly , you cant find all these point in everybody.

YSTZXT , MTHT is just purely lucky to have you as a girlfriend alright? (:

Iloveyou honey <3>

B, ily :D

2009-08-13T02:30:00.004+08:00

darling ,
play my blog & your own blog very fun hor :D
tsk , nevermind lah uh ;
say me B-bird , say me Penguin, say me Ass ; ....
( SOMETIMES I RLY WONDER WHY YOU SO EVIL )
but nevermind , i'm here to prove i'm a worthy girlfriend :D
( PS : thanks for that dumb kiss you give me thr w-c :D just only )

baby, i want to tell you this ! since the day we patch-ed :D
happy 5 months anniversary baby-love !
yknow i love you super lots & i'm not that evil to say you :D

When no one knows what's it like to be on our shoes.

2009-08-13T00:23:00.006+08:00

I guess i had the best memories of national day in my life (:
Happy belated birthday to singapore anyway.
Spent my national day with my one and only love (:
4day 3 night resort at my place i guess =x
I didnt know i could do that much thing at home until the last week..
If everyday could be like that 4days3night.
I swear i'll stay at home everyday !
I didnt know painting nails at home and i didnt know it could take up to one whole afternoon.
Removing it and i also didnt know it could take actually a minimum of 3 packets of tissues and afew hours doing so.
Watched Hot Shot. I didn't know some sad parts could make us laugh like nobody's business.
Watched Secret (: I didn't know it could be so boring until someone could fall asleep ! =x
Had pulling pants session and it was simply awesome ! oh my ~ i cant believe mine dropped on the floor. gosh ~ some embarrassing moment i guess.
I didnt know by lying down and watching tv could make me look like a porn star.
I didnt know sleeping could make someone squeezed to the corner.. =x ops ~
Had HTHT, It seems like it's just 30mins but the fact that it's been afew hours..
I didn't know i look like a ostrich =x Oh My ~ I'm going to Sleep ! =x
I didnt know someone looked so cute when she's sleeping (: Not until i really looked at her (:
I didn't know we had so much fun till we forgot to take pictures.
This only proves that the 4days 3nights was simply awesome !

Questions , Questions and Questions.
Mystery , Mystery and Mystery.

Tried putting yourself in other people's shoe?
Does a decision have really to be made between 2?
Being pushed to the corner or walking to the corner?
PS: No Hard Feeling Though.

Always wanted to solve certain things,
but never fails to go back to the starting point.
The problem will always be the same.
Effort not being appreciated or not enough effort is being put in?
Facts or Cant Be Bothered?
Truth or Excuses?

I WANT TO BE A PILLOW ! HER PILLOW ! =x

Ms Z Xueting, I hereby promise you i

won't ditch you again ! All thy readers shall be my witness (:

you're such an idiot

2009-08-09T01:08:00.004+08:00

YOU VERY IDIOT ;
YOU TICKLE ME ! D:
YOU SCOLD ME B-B !
ME NO LIKE YOUUUU !
YOU THIS BIG FAT OSTRICH !

edited, 13/8/09 :
Above post is posted by Ms Z Xueting (:

if i were to choose again :D

2009-08-04T14:30:00.004+08:00

baby-love ;
time & again you promised me you'll not ditch me again :D
sept fourth ,
am afriad, but i guess, you'll still accompany me through the hardest times :D
though i always say that i'll ditch you , but yknow im never serious ! <3
how can i possibly ditch this idiot of mine :D
only he is capable of ditching me twice in a year D: ( WITHIN 4 MONTHS ! )
idiot dumb-dumb ! i wonder why is he so dumb :D
through my hardest time, you were with me ;
so baby, through your hardest time, i'll be there with you
to stay by you every single little things, i'll not leave you :D
we quarrel, we cold-war , we cry, we though of breaking-up
we thought of giving-up, we hurt each other with words,
we ignore each other, we raise voices at each other,
we've conflicts here and there, we choose not to reply text ,
& many many more .
but the simple thing that never changes, is the fact that
i still love you , i still will hug you & i'll still kiss + bite youuu :D

THANK-YOU FOR DITCHING ME ! C'AUSE YOU SUCK !
YOU THIS FAT OSTRICH, DITCH DITCH DITCH ! DUMB-BO

-loveyou baby-love ! now & forever -

2009-07-17T21:11:00.002+08:00

I'm slowly losing faith in myself .

I dislike certain things.

I hate to admit that things aren't the same as before.

I hope i can overcome this.

I hope i have enough self control.

I'm not feeling very good now.

I want to scream.

There are millions of things i wanted to say

But idk whad.

I am just so not myself after certain stuffs.

I FUCKING HATE THIS FUCKING FEELING.

fuck it man. forget about it. i'll settle it myself.

2009-07-07T21:35:00.002+08:00

Random posting,
Woke up at around 1230 (:
Bring that ruscal to school.
I WANT TO COMPLAIN ! I'M SICK !
I HAD A FEVER 39.0 DEGREE YESTERDAY! COUGH AND FLU !
omg, ): what if i am infected with H1N1? ):
People , must still remember me okays?
Although i pranked dexter, almost made him cry (:
But i'm still worried okay ! *ya like real*
But nehmind la ! got a silly love to look after me , (:
ah, fever subsided already though,
left with cough. (:
means that i'm not infected with H1N1 ! the oink flu. =x
haha !

Went to meet baby at yishun mrt (:
Went to eat BD ! *figure that out yourself uhhs, *
haha, nice nice (: after that went to buy some junk food,
and someone say i'm junk food ! *tsktsk, not baby ahhs, yupps not baby*
haha, bought kokocrunch (: and milk =x
them came back home (:
watching the shuang zi xin thing. Finale today lehhs
and baby say she want to see i blog, but i think she watching tv. =x
cause she never say anything when i type this. (: haha !
Now she pull my leg hair ! OMG!
stupid advertisment ! Signing off ! shall count how many leg hair i lost later ! (:

Now and Forever (:

2009-07-05T02:15:00.002+08:00

Thursday ;

Baked Muffins at home with baby,

Oh gosh, All FAILED !

Not sweet at all,

No white sugar,

Used Brown sugar,

ahhs, sure is lousy. =x

But its quite lucky that we didn't have to eat it though,

They all went into the plastic bag,

Failed products.

Cannot eat, later stomache pain, tsktsk

The first try was quite... Ya. Nevermind, the colour just don't seems very nice.

It looks like... Something not very nice also. haha, But it should taste good if we had white sugar though.

Haha, Had fun though. =x After that went to watch Hot Shot inside room. =x

Tsktsk, someone fell asleep halfway. =x haha !

Then woke someone up to brush teeth (:

Quite obvious is who though, haha ! (:

After that jiu sleep le. (:

Friday ;

Woke up late for ECP =x

Went down with baby at around noon time though (:

haha, long trip down there.

Dropped at wrong stop, tsktsk

because of SOMEONE ! * ok fine, that someone is me x.x*

walked down with baby to rent bicycle. (:

Haha ! Took quite abit of time to start though. =x

Reasons will be highly confidential. * well, i'm not suppose to say*

Cycled till the end of ECP ! * first time i reached the end though*

Was like wow ! And saw that pikachu.

haha, Guess she forget me liiaos. haha,

The looks she gave me was like "who are you ahhs?" =x

haha, but well, she seems to changed alot. well, to me though, haha.

Baby took her number and we left, for the cycling journey (:

And oh ya, i forgot to mention, we had no idea about the time though,

We didn't bring phone along and baby forgot to bring her watch along ! haha !

But it was fun playing without knowing what time is it though ! (: haha

Went to sit down in front of the beach after returning the bicycles (:

haha, listened to ipod (: and, sing song. x.x

damn nan ting can. tsktsk, * i'm the one singing anyway =x"

blehs, after that cabbed down to ikea to eat cause we dont know which bus to take =x

haha, the cafe sure is packed, took quite long to get a seat.

And when we finally found one, I was mistaken to be a girl. OMG CAN !

Was standing to wait someone to clear the table, and when that auntie come, she called me

xiao jie. x.x

Baby was laughing ! and the auntie beside us was laughing also ! OMG ! i told the auntie i was not a girl. I'm a young man ! (:but was shot back x.x she say 17 where got young ! OMG can, =x

bad auntie, 17 is still not considered old hor hor =x

hahas, after that took the shuttle bus to bedok, mrted to tamp, then 969 back home. (:

baby changed liiaos jiu cabbed back le (:

exchanged phone with baby for a day ! (:

haha, not used to button though, lucky baby change, right after she boarded the cab, less than 3 mins, phone jiu died liiaos. =x

Saturday ;

Stupid teacher gave test again, some weird test.

Wrote section but never write what topic.

Survived that test though, quite easy (:

haha, Met up with baby after classes (:

Went to buy peach yoguart at J8 (: nice nice (:

Went down to AMK after that to eat astons.

After that baby bought candy floss ! ahh ! like how long never eat that lerhhs. =x

years man (: I'm a lucky boy, Baby fed me! (: haha.

Then we went to change my blink blink, the diamond drop =x

While waiting we bought yoguart again. Choco chips (:

But i guess idk how to appreciate =x Like sour sour de, taste like cheese? LOL!

Went back to get my blink blink, but that guy change wrong letter. tsktsk,

Some CG i think, =x speaks like one. =x and it's so weird if my last letter is O isnt it?

Tino ? =x My Darling's name is not XueTino ! =x But i'll still loves her alot even if her name is that though =x haha

Then we went down to DG (: Bought ticket for Transformer (:

It was a nice movie (:

Ordered baby to sleep in the theatre =x tsktsk

Then we went down to meet baby's clique for awhile (: haha

well, although it's still a little akward to me, but it's not at akward as the first time though ! (:

It isnt really as hard as i expected though, haha !

Reach home le (: Wc-ing with Baby ! (: haha (:

It doesn't really matter what people ask and say anymore,

It also doesn't really matter who are the one asking them,

Cause i've already know something deep inside me,

You're definately the one meant for me,

You never fails to give me surprises (:

and of cause, never fails to keep me in suspense =x tsktsk

Never fails to make me smile , no matter in messages, phone, dates and even wc !

You're just so loved ! Iloveyou baby, now and forever (:

Question !

Whad if one day..

Your lappy transform into a robot ? =x

I'm just joking, Dont PDLC okays? (:

Don't stress, As i'm here with you (:

SMILE ! :D

2009-06-22T00:29:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 4 today.

Had been a very long time since i woke up so late.

Baby woke up at around 230, and went back to sleep.

Then she woke up at around 5-6?

Called me, then we talked on phone.

Stayed at home for the whole day today,

Don't really have to mood to go out,

And the mood to do anything.

Sometimes i really wondered...

Sometimes i'm really afraid...

And sometimes i really hate...

I don't really know what to say,

I am wondering if i really put too much effort in certain stuffs.

But i've always wanted to put that much effort, those never ending efforts.

I know that you don't want your problem to be my problem.

But that doesn't means that i can don't be bothered about it isn't it?

I don't know how to express those feelings,

when you said that you dont want your problem to be my problem,

and when i'm unhappy it just add on to your problems.

I want your problems to me mine, cause i wanted to share your burden with you,

You get what i mean?

Certain stuffs might not be what you mean,

It might be that i mis-understand stuffs.

But anyway, I'm sorry,

I guess i did said certain stuffs that made things went wrong too..

I'm really hating the fact that the way we now talk is like, idk how to explain.

It just doesn't make me feel any better,

It just breaks me down.

I'm sorry.

Its really reassuring, when it's only you.

2009-06-18T02:03:00.003+08:00

First of all,
Thanks baby, beloved sister and wayne for celebrating my birthday with me,
Thanks baby for the wonderful day. <3
Thanks sister for that award. :x
And thanks wayne for taking the time out. (:
Reallye had lots of fun and of cause, Suspense !
Shall upload pictures some other time (:

Went out to the zoo with baby today,
Although it's just a short 2 hours,
But still we enjoyed.
Sorrye love,
It's a lil rush today,
I promise that i'll plan another day and we'll reallye provoke those tigers alright? <3
Went home after that and rented some DVD and watched with baby,
She fell asleep though, Sleeping like a baby beside me now =x haas, gonna wake her up soon though. =x
Shall let this silly love sleep awhile more (:

Baby,
thanks alot for the wonderful planning for my birthday alright?
You said it's just a simple day.
But when it's with you,
Everyday isn't just a simple day.
I dont know how to describe though :x
It's like, every moments will be so cherish-ed, treasure-d when you're there.
Well, It won't be a simple day even if it's just a sleepover.
Cause that day won't be a simple day, even if it's at my place for the whole day.
Your existance there will simply make my day,
Your hugs will simply makes me smile,
Your kisses will simply makes me melt.
OMG!!! I'm MELTING !! :X
I dont mind if i'm melted by you though. :X
ILOVEYOU BABY ! <3>

2009-06-13T01:57:00.002+08:00

ShakeSpeare - Love look not with the eyes but with the mind.

LOTL - My love for you is 1000x more than how jesus love his people.

Met up with baby in the morning,

Went down to JE to pass money to the bs girl. LOL!

Baby say she look like some china girl. =x

Never see her face properly though,

After that went to eat BD! =x

Baby like finally got to eat her BD uhhs.

After so long. The BD is nice overall, But the chilli cmi, Not Spicy At All .. x.x

After that went to take bus 97,

Wanted to go to art museum, But...

Say already damn throw face,

Skip that part, But i'm not going to bus to Art Museum again,

Especially bus 97. Haa! (:

After that had a change of plan to watch movie,

Went down to Marina Square to watch Land Of The Lost.

Comedy, And it's damn Funny.

Keep disturbing after that can !

"Me, Melvin, You, *******"

LizardMan, Dinosaurs and Chaka ! LOL!

Rated 4/5 (:

After that went to eat yoshinoya,

Then went to take pictures.

Ha !

I today damn zilian can !

Took more than 100 Pic siiol,

LOL! I cant remember when was the last time i took that much picture.. x.x

heh,

Really didn't had so much fun together with love for very long already.

Quite long since we went out dating also. =x

Ha ! But It's not going to end ! haas !

More are coming up !

I haven't visit my Museums, Zoo, Park, Farm, Ubins.

So many places ! ahhs ! haas (: No place jiu usuals ! haas (:

A normal day, could be changed to an unforgetable day, only with you ! <3

baby baby !

hope you enjoyed today .

really had been a long time since we go out for a date isnt it? haas !

but it's really really fun,

although we spent a quarter of the time inside the... B!

but it's still fun, ha !

i dont mind staying inside the B for one whole day.

At least i get to hug you ! (:

We didn't get to go to the art museum,

but we did enjoyed the movie and the photo taking session isn't it? <3

Every hug is cherished, Every kiss is treasured and Every moment is kept inside my heart,

Only when it's you !

ILOVEYOU BABY! (:

2009-06-09T00:23:00.002+08:00

Met up with beloved today,

Was late, so cabbed down to YCK mrt.

The cab uncle damn funny can,

He was married to a University wife,

So he told me whenever he quarrel with his wife,

He dont dare to speak about studies or the money he earn monthly.

LOL! Then he told me, Although his wife got dip, but he had a cert his wife couldn't get,

LEAVING SCHOOL CERTIFICATE!

He studied till primary 6 only.

LOL! Funny uncle. Was laughing all the way throughout the trip. :X

Met up with baby at YCK mrt after that.

Went down to PS to walk around.

Has been a long time since i went to PS already :X

After that went to xing wang to eat.

Talked bout certain stuffs.

And Someone cried in xingwang can ! ah! gave me a shock of my life. ><"

Baby,

Sometimes, Through blog is the way i could see how you really feels about stuffs.

If one mistake or one mis-understanding had happen after blogging made you have to double check what you have typed have hurt me or not, you dont have to do that.

I really wants to know how you feel at times, I want you to vent your anger on blogs, I don't want you to keep things from me. Certain things are really hard to tell, That's why sometimes we communicate by blogging isn't it? There are times we have conflicts, quarrel and obstacles coming across, But whose relationship won't have those? Through conflicts made us know more about each other , Through quarrels made us change for the better for each other and through obstacles made us closer. Isn't it? We change for the better for each other is because we don't want to make the same mistake twice, that's why we change. And actually, what you said today didn't really hurts. It hurts more when you said you don't know how to face me. I don't know why also.

Towards 'G',

I told you already,

I only dislike the fact that he asked you out to drink the first day he contacted back with you.

But if you want to meet up with him, I'm still fine with it.

I don't want to be demanding till it affects your circle of friends.

And towards 'B',

I don't really know what to say. LOL!

But i'm definately not J or what when he sms you or you meet up with him. (:

But seriously,

Sometimes, when you said you're going to have dinner with friends,

I'll get curious who are them. :X

It's not because i don't trust you or what.

Just curious okay!

*wink* so you know what to do ahhs <3>

And, I got to apologise,

I'm sorry baby.

Sometimes, I know I'm not a good boyfriend.

I don't know how to be a good boyfriend.

I'm only learning how to be one, after I've become your boyfriend.

Baby, I'm really sorry.

But, I still love you as much okays,

I said liiaos, Nothing is going to change anything,

Even if it is, It's definately going to change for the better.

It began with ILIKEYOU,

Then it becomes IAMGOINGTOWOOYOU, *still asked for permission okays*

Slowly, it became IMISSYOU!

Then , it became ILOVEYOU!

Hmmm, guess sometimes later it'll become IAMGOINGTOMARRYYOU?

YANSUETTENGZHENXUETING,

MELVINTANGMAIRONG LOVEYOU TO THE CORE CAN! <3

2009-06-08T01:10:00.002+08:00

Met up with baby yesterday.

Joined baby's clique for dinner. :x

Well, seems akward at first, but after that was okay.

haas, baby told me that zy tried to talk to me. but well, its really hard to strike a convor with her yesterday.

As in, i dont really know how to start up a convor with her.

It's also weird for me to talk to her out of the blue. =x

plus i dont really know what kind of topic to start.

haas, feel kinda bad about it. =x

Only talked to baby and sis niahs.

LOL!

then after that baby, pat and sis sent me to mrt station. haas, so sweet right? <3>

went to dex's house to change stuffs jiu go home liiaos <3>

DAMN ! I MISS BABY SO MUCH CAN !! AHHS !!

my eyes is always so jealous of my heart. =x

cause baby is always so close to my heart, yet so far away from my eyes ):

2009-05-17T22:38:00.002+08:00

You said you wanted to know how i feels isn't it?

You don't want to know them only after asking me.

Vice versa, I don't want to get to know yours only by after asking you.

You really got to know that different words has different meaning behind them.

And how serious those words could bring you to.

I don't really want to assumes anymore.

I want you to tell me them yourself.

I didn't say you didn't bother to do msg me and so on.

Up till now, I still don't know the reason, Tell me those reason won't you?

Stop letting me assumes things.

I'm really tired from all of these.

It's like always starting without a definate reason behind it.

And both of us are seriously affected isnt it?

You know? When my phone was dead, and i couldnt sms.

When i charged it, and turned it on.

Sms keep running in.

But none of them was from you. Nevermind, you might be too busy.

Am i really asking for too much? When the first thing i see every morning couldnt be you and let it be your sms?

And you know how disappointing it is to recieve none when i woke up?

And when i sms you, replies are like that?

And the fact that i've to act like i'm not affected?

Yes, You're sick that night, and you turned off your phone.

After i get to know that. Do you know how bad i felt?

When i couldnt get through you, do you know how worried i got?

And the next day, Every msg was like less than 2 sentence.

When i ask you, You told me you'll tell on blog.

And i have to wait till night till i reach home.

That period of time, I'm suppose to keep myself in suspence and assume things myself uhhs.

What if you're the one recieving that kind of msges from me?

Its like, every conversation is ended with just afew words again.

I've been wondering, If i didnt msg you during afternoon, Will you msg me?

Tell me that answer from the bottom of your heart wont you?

And please, Dont say it doesnt matter anymore or trying not to answer those questions or avoiding it.

I believe you know that how serious things are now.

I believe you know what kind of situation we're in now.

2009-05-17T20:23:00.002+08:00

I am still very confused over everything,
Friday, You asked me to wake you up at 12.
But your phone was turned off.
Well, you could have dropped me a sms or something even if you're sick.
And what is worst is you didn't tell me anything at all.
I got to find out from your blog uhhs.
And the next day was like hell.
That kind of feelings i had at bugis that time came back again.
That kind of i cant be bothered feelings.
I told you before i hated that kind of feelings didnt i?
I guess thats the only thing that can make me pissed off so far.
You can browse back all the msgs you sent me.
What if you're the one recieving those kind of msges?
I've already tried my very best to put it in a way that it'll be over soon.
But it's happening almost every weekend.
Does this means that i must put it in the way that every sat i must tell myself everything will be over once monday comes?
I've been trying my best to do what i can.
But the replies i got back makes me speechless.
Oh gosh, I hope this get over quickly.

2009-05-17T18:46:00.002+08:00

Idk what kind of feelings i;m having now.
Idk if i am more to pissed or disappointed.
Idk that so much thing can change overnight.
Idk why i'm feeling this way.
Is it a must that these kind of shits must happen at every fucking weekend?
I'm beginning to hate every weekends.
Fuck it. I just want to be quiet for now.

2009-05-04T00:36:00.002+08:00

Ever wondered why they says that a picture prints a thousand words?

It's because you can see everything by just looking at it,

Sweetness, Cuteness, Stupidness. Almost everything!

Like words, Different pictures brings out different kinds of reactions.

Some pictures even made me smile to myself in front of my computer. =D

Picture Picture on the wall. Who is the cutest of all??!! ^^

Barney and friends! =D
My brother is not extra, He's purely cute =D

Well, Superhero of the day =D *Thats a hairband anw.*

Cannot ps love wear spec. I must wear also. Just that mine is hairband =D

Thank god someone invented this thing called camera. =D

How i wish i could be a camera. Just a "Snap"! And i'll have you forever with me =D

Post specially for my one and only love =D

I'm sorry love, the results wasn't what you wanted.

I'm still disappointed in that kind of pethetic scores too.

Really expected more from it .

Gonna read more to score more next time =D

Thanks for letting me rant also <3>

Millions of things i wanted to tell you.

But i just don't know is what.

Although alot of things happened the past few days.

But still, I won't let go of anything.

I gave you my words for it already isnt it? =D

I'm willing to give up everything for you.

Including my pride.

After so long, I've already know that pride wont get me anywhere.

Ah! I'm missing you so much now =x

Missing your smile, your hugs, your everthing!

Gonna meet you up for dinner later okays? <3

I bet we're going to have heh heh heh again =x

blehs! ILY baby~ =D

Well, i always have =D ^^

2009-04-29T03:06:00.003+08:00

Really am mentally tired. Really wanted to rest, But there are tons of things running through my mind, so i guess i'll rant it all here before i go get some rest and chill.
Guess today sure is a bad day for me.
Words from different people holds different values, different impact.
Just when i thought things will be better after yesterday.

I'm wrong. When will it actually stop?

Maybe you didn't mean anything you said today,

Maybe it's really that I'm being too serious about it.

Maybe I'm just being too sensetive about it.

But still, It still hurts alot.

To you, I might be having the simplest life ever,

Free from studies and free to go out and play everyday.

Its a fact that my schedule is not as packed as yours.

I'm not facing that kind of stress you're having,

From what you see, I'm just that kind of person that goes out to play and enjoy myself not studying at all.

No one actually knows that i'm spending the effort to be home early to revise those god damn books, although i still hate books as much.

I mean, do i even have a choice? I wanted to score well at the end of the year.

But it seems to me that no one knows. I expected the least that you should know that i'm already spending the effort. But it's either the effort that i've spent is not enough or you failed to realise it isn't it?

I dislike that fact that you told me that I'm trying to push you away to other people when the fact is that I'm not.

It might be a joke, But that will be a bad joke to me.

I'll never push you away. Not now, neither will it be in future.

Do you even know how important you are to me?

When you tell me that won't i find it a little no use telling you some things.

It really hurts alot.

My concern had became something no use. Maybe that's not what you meant.

But still, it makes me wonder how much value my words holds to you too.

The next message you sent me makes me feels like we're strangers.

I'm really stuck and disappointed when i saw that.

I didn't expect things to turn out this way.

I didn't know so much things could be changed within a short one week too.

I'm wondering that will you text me when you're going to bed.

Will it be "I'm going to sleep already, nights" ?

I'm starting to miss the kind of days we had together before school started.

But even when so many things had happened, I still love you as much.

I really want this period of time to end soon.

2009-04-28T03:35:00.002+08:00

It's pretty weird,
I'm not surprised after reading your blog.
It's already pretty obvious afew days ago.
It's just that I've been lying to myself.
Lying to myself that things will get better as time pass.
But it seems like I'm wrong.

Somehow, It affected me alot after that day you studied in mac.
It's like, every conversation that was started between us was ended by a few words,
You plucked in your earpiece before we tapped in.
And in between was like so quiet.
I don't really know what to do or say.
Afraid that you'll be annoyed by it.
You didn't meet up with bl and walked home.
I get to know it only by reading your blog.
It's like, we're suddenly miles apart.
I believe that you know that kind of feeling sucked to the core too.

It's not like i failed to realised anything.
It's just that, after that day, I'm afraid that our conversation will end with afew words again. And i don't really know how to say stuffs.
I'm not blaming on it. But you should realised that you've been very low every night ever since school started.
Everynight was like so cold and nightmares to me.
For that moment, It's not i want time to stop anymore, I wanted night to never come.
Cause whenever i tried to cheer you up, It never seems to work.
I'm really an idiot at times isn't it?
I'm seeing you feeling so low and yet i can't do anything bout it.
Got to agree that I'm really useless too.

But still, I want to cheer you up when you're feeling low.
I want to be the one to carry you up when you falls.
I want to be always there for you.

2009-04-24T12:59:00.002+08:00

1.Are you single - ' Happily Attached xD

2.Are you happy -' Yupps =D

3.Are you bored - ' Yupps, Bored to the core =/

4.Are you fair - ' Not for me to judge =D

5.Are you italian - ' How i wish i am =/

6.Are you intelligent - ' Nope, I'm dumb & its very very dumb (: *Ms Z Xueting says so* (:

7.Are you honest - ' No , i'm never honest =/

8.Are you nice - 'No, i'll never be nice, i'm always very mean :x

9.Are you Irish - 'No, obviously not, i'm a Singaporean , kiasu people

10' Facts about you

Full name: Melvin Tang Hao Tian

Nickname : Mel

Birthplace: Thomson Hospital

Hair colour: Black, White, Purple =D

Natural hairstyle : Mushroom

Eye colour: Black Black =/

Date of Birth : 16 June 1992 ( its not anything special , no need rmb )

Mood : Bad Mood, I just got pinched D: & i'm drying people's hair now D:

Favourite colour (S) : blue

One place you like to visit: The NICE smelling toilet

10'questions about my love life.

1.Have you ever been in love - Yes, like who never, ha !

2.Do you believe in love at first sight - Okay luhh =D

3.Do you currently have a crush - Yes :)

4.Have you ever been hurt emotionally - yes, like who never =/

5.Have you ever broken someone's heart - Yes most guys do that =/

6.Have you have your heart broken - Yes, lot of time :(

7.Have you ever liked someone but never told them - No No , i very open de =/

8.Are you afraid of commitment - Yes, i very scared.

9.Who was the last person you hug- My bolster, its a person to me !

10.Who was the last person you said I love you to- Some idiot =/

10'this or that

1.Love of lust - Lust!

2Hard liquor or beer - Both both!

3.Cat or Dog- Neither =/

4.A few best friends or regular friends - I want none

5.Creamy or crunchy - idw , later my teeth drop. =x

6.Pencil or Pen - I want rubber

7.Wild night out or a romantic night in - Both night within one night =D

8.Money or happiness - Both also want :)

9.Night or day - Afternoon =D

10.IM or phone - What is IM? I want Ipod

10'Have you ever'

1.Been caught sneaking out - I've never been sneaking in =x

2.Seen a polar bear - Got! In my dreams =x

3.Done something you regret - I've never done anything that i never regret.

4.Bungee jump - Later i'm lost, idw =/

5.Eaten food that fell on the floor - Nope and never! Wayne likes to do that

6.Finished entire jaw breaker - Yes, Many times too, oops

7.Been caught naked -Yes, always

8.Wanted an ex gf/bf back -I have what i have already =/

9.Cried bcos you lost a pet - Yes, i cried for 3 days 3 nights

10.Wanted to disappear -No , later cannot come back

10'preferences in a patner

1.Smile or eyes - smile (:

2.Light or dark hair - both

3.Hugs or kisses - None,

4.Shorter or taller - taller than me :)

5.Intelligent or Attraction -no need luhh, i also not so clever :)

6.Topman or zara - None, 3 for $10 , pasamalam =/

7.Funny or serious - serious ! just like a teacher,

8.Older or younger - older than me , i like old people

9.Outgoing or quiet - Quiet, so that i can talk alot =/

10.Sweet or bad - bad, can suan me more =/

10'Have you's

1.Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yes, pole dance :D

2.Ever talked on the phone for longer than 1 hr - no, i got no friends to talk so long

3.Ever walk on hands - no need luhh, got legs can already =/

4.Ever been to a rock concert -No, stone musical yes !

5.Ever been in a cheerleading team - no, i dont want die so early

6.Ever been in a dance team- no need luhh, i dance pole dance no need team

7.Ever been in sports team - No, im a walking fishball , cannot play sports

8.Ever been in a drama play/production - no need lah , i so POPULAR liao =/

9.Ever owned o BWW/Mercedes Benz/Escalade/Hummer/Bentley- No, i got a bicycle ( 4 wheels)

10.Ever been in a rap video - Nope

10'Lasts

1.Last phone call you made - Daddy =/

2.Last person you hugged- bolster rather than xueting

3.Last person you hung out with - If hung, i'll be dead !

4.Last time you worked - i work out very often

5.Last person you talked to - rather talk to a bowl den xueting =/ oops

6.Last person you IM'D - does not know IMD stand for

7.Last person you text - rather text next door neighbour than her =D

8.Last person you went movie with - with LJT

9.Last person/thing you missed - My porridge =/

10.Last website you visited - porn =x , & gin's blog (:

Quiz Done By Ms ZXT =D

All done by her =/

Oh~ Poor me ~ =(

2009-04-14T01:10:00.003+08:00

Grandpa was admitted to the hospital last night.

They told me that he was having kidney disfunction.

Had his first dialysis yesterday.

Going down to ttsh later on. =D

*To the world, You may be one person.
But to one person, You might be the world!*

I've never had this kind of feeling before.

I wanted time to stop immediately,

Its very hard to see you getting so troubled before you gets into poly.

Its also very hard to know that you will hardly have the time to rest.

Wondering if we even have the time to meet up.

I'll be satisfied as long as i can say ILY and hug you everyday.

But it seems like it'll be hard.

The way you put it to me is like there'll be totally no chance to see each other.

That's why i wanted to change topic in the afternoon.

It really breaks my beart that you put it that way.

Baby, I'm really worried bout your poly life.

But still, You still have to promise me some things uhhs.

No matter what happens, don't cry okays?

As in, towards friends and results,

Cause you never know how much i loved to see you smile.

A smile of yours could make a day of mine.

And and and, you promised me already, you're not allowed to neglect me in any way ahhs.

I'm not going to give you constant reminders. =D

You got to work that out yourself =D

And please. Before school starts, don't make it sounds like poly is hell.

It might be fun you know =D !!

IAMMISSINGYOUBADLY!!

*One day i caught myself laughing for no reason, Then i found out that I'm thinking of You*

Its not really bothering me if zy could accept me or not.

I'm not being offended in anyway.

But still, Some things never change. ^^

At the end of the day,

I am still who i am.

The difference gap is way too big.

But it doesnt really matters too. =D

Who cares if she could accept me or not?

Whats more important is you've already accepted me already isnt it? <3

ILOVEYOU BABY! <3

*I seem to have a problem. I think I've lost my heart, I can't find it anywhere, Its like I'm searching in the dark, I was beginning to panic. wondering what to do. But then i remembered I gave it to you. *

2009-04-10T01:53:00.002+08:00

Celebrated grandpa's birthday today at some steamboat restaurant around Novena today.
It was fun overall.
Was very fed up with my stupid mother for being that un-responsible.
For not telling me the details of where to meet and where to eat.
I've got to ask her myself.

Came back to yishun after the dinner and went to dennis's house to drink. *My 2nd aunt. Used to call her by her name*
Went to NTUC to get some mixer and had some conflict with some old slut.
Knocked into my aunt when she didnt say "excuse me".
So my aunt told me Singaporeans now have no manners. LOL!
She turned back and stared at me like one kind and told us loudly that she said "excuse me" 3 times.
Obviously, me and my aunt didn't heard her saying that.
And she didn't stop at all.
Made me so mad.
As in, She don't have to be rude and talk that loudly in the public,
She stared at me obviously and she told me she was looking at her husband.
I was like, Wtf? OO
Her husband confronted me after that, saying that his wife was looking at him.
Told him politely that his wife was obviously looking at me , Duhh! everyone saw that.
That husband of her's was siding his wife of cause.
Talking louder and louder, then saying that is he being rude now by talking that loud.
Lols. This is what i get when i am being polite to him uhhs?
Fine, was thinking no point quarreling with this kind of bastard.
2nd aunt suddenly came and ask what happen.
Before that man could explain,
she told the cashier to ask for the manager to come,
while i told him to give me a minute while i make a report to the police since he doesn't seems to be quite happy with it, acting like some big shots.
Although i really feel like slapping his damn face, but i held back. Lols, it wont solve the matter afterall.
Think he is working in mediacorp. His expression and attitude change to fast that even i can't believe it.
One moment he was standing at his wife side. After my aunt asked for the manager and i said i wanted to make a report, he apologise immediately. LOL!
Seriously, i wanted to laugh at that point of time, he told me maybe his wife speak too softly and we cant hear it. There was like so many people over there at that time, he was acting like some big shots just because he was older than us. He still got the cheek to tell me he don't really know what happened, thought it was my fault cause i told his wife off. They was there trying to embarrass us and when i speak up it became my fault? I mean, if they really have no faults, why apologise immediately when they heard i said i wanted to make a report to the police?
By doing this doesn't everything back-fired at them?
He shooked my hand after that. Saying, young man, i can see you're a nice guy. And he apologised again. LOL!
Weird old man. I ignored that bitch though. Lols. But well, not blaming that old man, he stood up for his wife afterall. peace!

Went back home after going to dennis's house to help mummy burn the house things for the ancestors. Can't really be bothered though.
My dad was a adopted child. My granny came over to my house and told my mom when i was at primary school. She told my mom that my dad was a adopted child in front of me. She didn't really treat me like her grandson when i was young. And now my mom expects me to burn all this kind of shits to some ancestor who i don't know and did shits to me when i was a child?
She treated me better only when i was at sec 1. When i refused to go over to her house during CNY.
Thinking by coming over to my house and giving my mom a 2k to buy books and stuffs for me will make me forgives her?
She humiliated me when i was a kid. Regretting everything only when i didn't go over to her house during CNY? Knowing that i was the eldest boy among all her grandchildren?
I mean, she didn't gave me a good impression since i was a kid. I heard from mom that when i was born, she refused to carry me until my grandma asked her to carry me. She used to tell me
"You come for what?" when my dad brought me down to her place when i was young. Even at CNY she'll say that. She lost one of her red packet which have a $200 inside during one of the CNY and the first thing she do is to call my mom and ask we got take that red packet or not.
After doing all this kind of shits and my mom still expect me to help her burn those shits to my so called ancestors? They can't be counted as my ancestors anyway. I don't even know who is my real granny since my dad was an adopted child.
I don't even know if they're dead or they're alive somewhere.
I can't really be bothered bout anything in regards of them.
They didn't do any part being a grandparent,
and so i believe i won't be doing any part as a grand child too.
In fact, I really hope that they are not my grandparents.
Its really a disgrace to have this kind of grandparents.

2009-03-09T01:24:00.002+08:00

Silly baby,
I dont know if thats the reason that why you broke down or not.
But i guess I'm still responsible to clarify that with you.
You haven't replied my message and when I'm online,

You're offline already..

I hope you'll be seeing this.

And i also want you to know that none of this is going to lead to any quarrel,

Not even one bit.

If its because of status,

Then you this silly bi,

You should've known that I'm already yours a long long time ago.

Ever since 2006,

I'm already yours.

Although during the period between 2006-2008 we had some quarrels.

And i know i'm being very childish during the quarrels and the stop in contact for a few months.

But i found out that I couldnt let you go.

And In fact i don't want to let you go anymore.

I want you to be mine.

I wanted to ask for patch,

But i just cant seems to bring up the courage to do so.

I'm afraid you'll tell me that you prefer the r/s now.

That's why i've never brought up that.

But none of that is important isn't it?

The most important part is that i love you.

Sweetheart, Please drop me a message after you see this,

I'm so worried bout you now.

Please Please and Please. <3

2009-02-24T22:23:00.003+08:00

Was back home for a little while =D

Baby came to my house. =D

Can't go home last night.

Cause she is silly enough to leave her keys at home! ha! silly baby. =X

And and and !!! I'm so touched WeiLian accompanied us too!

Wahaha! So generous of him.. But he was using the comp all the way =/

I guess if my house catches fire, he wouldn't know until he feels the fire burning his backside =x

Got to wear long sleeves shirts for the next few days.. D=

Was bitten by some vampire =/

And it was so special!

Vampire actually can give love bites! OMG! * thought they only suck blood? *

Recieved the v day present for baby,

Thanks alot! Its so sweet baby.

Thanks for the memo , the watch and the sweet little note. =D

Appreciate it lots lots..

Lucky WeiLian was here..

Or else i guess I'll cry man..

Was like so touched..

Will make good use of the sweet little memo and the watch.. * Although I'm still wondering how much that watch cost you.. *

Your v day present can't give you yet yahhs.. =X

Not ready yet.. =X

Got to go out again,

To meet jon. =/

Eh bi, Thanks for the present.

Never fails to make me happy =X

Never fails to make me feel touched

And never fails to bite me also! =D

Sorry that my house can't be happening that i wanted..

But we had fun afterall ya?

After reading this, You better try to rest early..

As early as you could..

You didn't have much sleep last night..

Love you loads <3

Never ever leave me again ya? =D

LOVE LOVE LOVE!! =D

2009-02-22T00:43:00.003+08:00

Before i post..

I want to scold WL inside my blog first..

IDIOT!!! make me lose 1k+ credits in tagged!!

RAWRHS!

Shouldn't have fall for your trick =X

Blehs.. Nvm.. I shall slowly earn back =X

Ha!

Its not that I'm feeling jealous or what..

I'm just afraid that misunderstanding will occurs again..

I'm afriad that things might not be happening that how it should happen in a normal chalet.

I'm afraid that you'll be put at a difficult situation..

I know it could be very un-reasonable for me to make that decision..

I know you might be thinking that I am just being too sensitive and stuffs..

But like i said.. I'm afraid of myself..

I don't want to lose you anymore.

I said I'm going to be selfish, But at the same time, I don't want to be unreasonable and unfair to you.

That's why I'm afraid to tell you at first..

I'm afraid that you'll be unhappy with that answer..

I don't want to have those kind of feelings to be worrying at home..

I seriously hope that you'll understand..

But, if you really want to stay, I won't say anything either.

I just want you to enjoy to the fullest. =D

I love you sweetie <3

2009-02-19T09:40:00.003+08:00

Bi, You know? I realised something..
The previous time i had those thoughts and feelings,
I because I jut loved you so much..
After 2 long years, I still can't let go..
And I'm not planning to let it go either..
I'll have those thought is because I'm afraid that you'll leave.
I want you to be just mine..
Let me be selfish this time round ya?

And if you're thinking I'm going to just go MIA like the previous time,
I give you my words that it won't happen..
I'll be persistant this time round..
I'll so persistant that you can never imagine.

If you think that by telling me some things will lead to a quarrel,
I don't think that will happen either..
Afterall, You can't clap with one hand.
I won't blame you when its not your fault.
Although I'm going to become selfish,
But I'm not going to become unreasonable.

And remember the post when you said if I'm with 'her' I might be happier?
You told me that you're going to be selfish right?
I just want to tell you..
Please.. Never ever push me away..
I want to be there with you.
And just you.
No one else.
Regarding that.. Be as selfish as you can ya..
Or if its possible.. Be so selfish that you've never been before..
I'll never wants to be pushed away..
Especially by you..
You just hold so much value inside my heart that you can never imagine.

I just cant forget bout those sweet moments we had,
those sweet words you told me,
those sweet actions you showed me,
those concerns,
those cares
basically,
everything!

To be really really honest,
There's a period of time I tried to forget you and tried to hate you.
But somehow,
I just can't do that..
It's not that i don't want,
It's not that I'm holding back.
It's just a mission impossible to me.
Even if i somehow did that.
You'll just still be there inside my heart..
It's like a scar,
Once it's there, it's there.

And and and ... You're such an idiot..
Get youself occupied inside the room in my heart.
What's worst? You can't move out either..
So.. Since that's already your property,
Use your property wisely ok?
Don't knock that property and creates a hole in there..
Cause it hurts..
It's not that I'm afraid of pain so asking you not to do that..
To be precise,
Don't hurt me..
Don't make me feel insecure.
Don't lie to me.
And don't keeps things from me..

Melvin have legs..
He can run,
But his heart doesn't have any,
So his heart won't run away.
So bi,
Never ever feel insecure ok?
Nothing will change the fact that I'm already yours <3>

2009-02-18T03:33:00.003+08:00

Was tired.. But unable to sleep.

So decided to blog..

Things just keep running through my mind.. dammit.. Lol..

Wondered if i'm a sensitive person or not..

Even though i tried,

I just cant be not sensitive in certain things..

And i can't accept the fact that i cant do anything bout it..

It not that i cant.. But more to i don't want..

Things will be worst if i do something bout it..

So i chose rather not to do anything bout it..

Somehow, after that incident, i'm feeling very insecure.

And i'm not feeling very good bout it..

I don't know why..

But i'm beginning to get more and more sensitive these few days..

Its not what i wanted but it just happens..

I'm not going to write anymore details.. so yupps.. idw to talk bout it anymore too..

First of all.. I want to tell you that None of this is going to lead to a quarrel nor mis-understanding.

Its not your fault.. You dont have to blame yourself either. Its just me. I dont know why it will become like that either.

Its like.. I'm feeling so lost now.. I dont know how come i've become like that.

Guess it'll be alright after sleeping.. Afterall.. This kind of emotion just doesnt suits me... And i don't like them either..

So, Nights darling. <3

*Private* I'm just an idiot afterall.. When others approach me for r/s problem, I'll make sure things goes well for them..

But whenever it comes to me, I'm just so damn lost. IDIOT IDIOT IDIOT IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-12T01:09:00.002+08:00

New skin, New post.

LOL, Dexter's going to kill me after he found out that he's actually a gorilla .. =X

Well.. Its funny though..

Went to buy some of my course books today. Lols.

And and and!! My brother learnt 2 new words..

The 2 words are "Fuck You"..

Lols.. He scolded me that today.. =X

Quite classic though.. LOL

Shall update more soon! =D

2009-01-22T18:39:00.003+08:00

Going to Update this dead blog =D

Has been a long time since i updated..

Was lazy to do so..

Yesterday went to bugis with weilian to buy the rest of the CNY clothes i haven't bought.

Wow, Bugis was like so packed up..

Felt like a tuna.. Squeezing here and there.

But well.. Bought the belt i always wanted to buy.. and spent a total of 160.

Before we went to bugis went to meet up with bi and beelian... =D

After that then we went to bugis.

Was fun and tiring afterall.. =D

Then we met up with jon after we reach home.

Saw his neighbour..

Celest was her name.. =x

A tall and hot chick. =3

Talking bout her oranges perfumes..

I was like... laughing all the way when she said she wanted to name her future

orange farm as " Orange Alah Jon "

Jonathan will be one of the founder of "Orange Alah Jon" and she will become a millionaire

after opening the farm.. LOL!

She was a lil high yesterday .. =X

HA! I guess if she is younger and i gets to know her earlier i'll fall i love with her! (Don't jealous ok? )

Okays! Got to look after that ruscal.. Will upload pictures some other time! BOO!

*Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.*

2008-12-17T02:38:00.003+08:00

Mel, Keai Cindy~ * She wanted to cut her nose :)*

Mel, Dearest Jie Jie <3

Whads there again?? OO

Went out with Jie jie, Cindy and Gin today.

Met up with Gin first. Went to fareast to buy the magic cards!

Weets~ Finally bought my dearest cap and the cards~

Then met up with Cindy then Jie jie.

Went to cine to watch Bolt.

But went to the arcade first.

Played basketball and Gin and Jie Jie lost!!

Wahaha! Forfeit was to kiss each other. *Gin was the one who came up with it*

Then walked to PS to slack at StarBucks.

Bored and took photos.

Cindy is going to kill me for uploading her pic which she looks like she is going to cut her nose or something :X

After that Jie Jie cabbed us back <3

Wees~

2008-12-08T01:57:00.003+08:00

The Most Damaging One Letter Word : Avoid It
"I"

The Most Satisfying Two-Letter Word : Use It
"We"

The Most Posionous Three-Letter Word : Kill It
"EGO"

The Most Used Four-Letter Word : Value It
"Love"

The Most Pleasing Five-Letter Word : Keep It
"Smile"

The Fastest Spreading Six-Letter Word : Ignore It
"Rumour"

The Most Enviable Seven-Letter Word : Achieve It
"Success"

The Most Nefarious Eight-Letter Word : Distance It
"Jealousy"

The Most Powerful Nine-Letter Word : Acquire It
"Knowledge"

The Most Essential Ten-Letter Word : Maintain It
"Confidence"

Woke up at 3pm...

Sleeping like a baby,

Had sweet dream i guess...

Then went to aunt house at around 5-6,

helping her to move her stuffs back to her house.

Took cab back *being sponsored*

Then went out awhile to pass ben back his ezy link.

Chated with xueting on the phone.

TIRED!

Time to get some rest~ :)

2008-12-03T00:04:00.002+08:00

Went to orchard, bugis with [G]ui today :X
Then we went to watch Quarentine,
A very Fucked Up movie!
Although its fucked up, but its nice overall,
But i find it has a very bad ending.
All died, I expected a few to survive.
I bet i could sleep well tonight,
Cause of the movie! LOL!

2008-11-25T23:01:00.003+08:00

1.who's the last person that tagged you?

-Nat

2. Relationship between you and him?

-Eh, My Pi Tui? :)

3. Three impressions of him?

-Generous, Kind and Cute? Lols

4. If he becomes your enemy, you will?

-Possible meh? :X

5. What will you say to the person you like very much?

-I Like You! :)

6. Characteristic i like about myself?

-Don't know, Not up to me to decide :)

7. Characteristic i hate about myself?

-SHORT!

8. For the person whom you hate, you say?

-FUCK OFF AND DIE!

9. What do people feel about you?

-I don't read people's mind ya...

10. Your crush?

- What a question to ask~ PRIVACY!

11. Pass this to 10 people

1.Benson

2.Cindy

3.Dexter

4.Elgin

5.Justin

6.Minghui

7.Nat

8.Rod

9.Val

10.Vinnie

12. If 5 & 7 were together?

-LOL, They Don't even know each other. :)

13. who does 5 like?

-10

14. What colour does 9 like?

-Pink bahhs.

15. Say something about 8

-Humble :)

16. Who is 2?

-My Aiai <3

17. Talk about 3.

A very emotional botak who acts like a "Monkey" during his training sliding down poles and holds water guns during his training! Wahaha! He is a FIREMAN! :)

18. Who is 10's best friend?

-How i know? LOL

19. Who's the sexiest among all 10?

-Myself :X

20. What colour does 4 like?

-Green

21. Is 4 single?

-Nope, Attached to 9

22. Your relationship with 1

-My Brother :)

23. Are 5 & 6 best friends?

-Can like that say bahhs :)

24. 9's surname?

- LOW (V.L.L.Y)

25. 7's nickname?

-FEIFEI!

26. Say something to 8

-Hi ROD!

27. Say something to help 9

-TRUST!

28. Who do i admire?

-BILL GATES

29. Where does 1 live?

-Yishun

30. 10 of them know who you like?

- No Idea

31. Say something to 6 when you see him

-SI MING HUI!

32. 10's spouse?

-SINGLE

2008-11-16T01:18:00.003+08:00

Went to meet dexter today.

And took this photo.. LOL!

Was pretty bored.

Talked and Slacked~

Beloved Jie jie and cindy cant make it to meet us today.

Nehmind~ Next time kkays?

Although we met up not long ago,

But you guys are still being missed <3

2008-11-15T00:20:00.003+08:00

Back home late today,
went to suntec just now,

then at there drank some beer.

Was pretty tired and bored.

So we went to the toilet and took some photo. :)

(Shirt by beloved jie jie and cindy <3)

Ok, I'm going to rest.

Nights! :)

Might be late,

But happy birthday girl.

2008-10-28T04:05:00.002+08:00

Didn't blog for a long time.
Was lazy to do so. :X
Just reached home after working.
Damn.. Was a tiring day.
Working as a waiter at some hotel.
Highly confidential where I'm working at.
Ask me at msn if u really wants to know.
Stupid manager. Do something wrong then say want to cut our pay.
Lame shit. He didn't teach us what to do also.
Then was working together with this asshole that i don't really likes..
What to do?
Ok, I shall stop here.
Dead tired~ :)

2008-10-09T06:26:00.003+08:00

If you ever think that i'm that kind that will forget easily,
You are wrong. I've got my own troubles dealing with that too.
But i still chose the way that it should be.
Maybe i am sick and tired of it already.
Jealousy, Patience, Trust and Belief.
Its a fact that i'm not good enough.
Its not that i am dashing your hopes.
There's nothing good in me.
A drop out, Lazy and so on.
Seriously, What did you see in me?
Maybe i'm being selfish over here cause i wanted things going my way.
You can choose to hate me.
But kindly don't ruin your future because of this.
If you can, prove me wrong by scoring well in your Os.
There are people beside you that will help you through, aren't they?
You know who they are..

2008-10-08T16:08:00.002+08:00

Although i know this particular hypocrite won't be reading this.
But i'll still say things from the bottom of my heart in this post.

Once upon a time i treated you as a very good friend of mine.
Or should i say, i treated you as my brother.
I've never once given you any excuse.
Even though there might be times people asking me things that i don't want to do.
But i'll still try my best to do it . Unless its really impossible for me to do it.
I don't say things for the sake of saying.
Even i does, i'll still try to do things your way.
So you don't have the rights to say that i'm good giving excuses.
I agree that there might be times i made fun of you.
But, if you can't take jokes, jollywell fuck off.
People only know how to think how tired are they, who in the world spared a fucking thought for me?
I do stuffs for the sake of everyone.
People ask me to do something, i just keep my damn mouth shut and do. Its okay if you're happy.
Thats what i thought. What happen at the end of the day? People treated me as a stupid asshole.
I know who is making use of me and who is not.
It's pretty obvious sometimes. But the reason i still keep in touch with them?
This bloody thing called friends.
I treasure friendships. Even though i sometimes think that what if i really get myself in a big trouble. Who will be there and who will not?
But who cares? As long as i did my part in a friendship, I don't have anything to worry about.
I won't be feeling guilty and stuff when whoever is in deep shit. I've already done what i could do. Isn't it?
Its not like i gave you my word for something when i won't even bother trying it and giving you some kind of excuse at the end of the day.
Since when i did such things? Lets put my grandma out of the story.
Cause its a fact that i cant do anything bout her. Whenever she wanted to go out, I cant be selfish and ask her to stay at home just for my own sake.
Afterall she is my grandma and she looked after my brother with no conditions.
So, if you ever got the chance to see this, i doubt you know that i'm talking bout you.
We onced hanged out together. We onced did stupid things together. I treated you as a brother. After you hanged out with some bastards you changed. I keep my mouth shut. I don't say stuffs that will ruin friendship for you. Cause once upon a time, you were my brother. So if you've got anything so say, don't do it behind my back. Tell me straight at the face. Stop saying things like i am good at giving excuses.
But if any readers read this. And agrees that i'm good at giving excuses, please tell me.
Since when i have given excuses. And reason. Cause so far from what i see. The only thing that made me unable to do things at times is only my grandma. If i'm ever good at giving excuse, i don't mind to apologise. But at the same time, tell me.

For that person who sent me that damn sms that makes me so fucking pissed.
It's my fault for falling asleep.
I jumped up from my bed in the middle of the night just to apologise didn't i?
Don't tell me that i am using my grandma as an excuse. Its not an excuse. Its a fact.
Afterall, i've to fetch my brother to and back from school.
I've to do it because i had a irresponsible mother.
I don't want my brother to be a drop out like me too.
I remember you once asking me that now i do so much for my brother.
Will he be doing the same things when he grow up?
My answer to that is i don't know and i don't care.
Afterall he's my brother to start with.
When he grows up and i didn't do all this stuffs,
And if he fucks up his life, I'll be blamed for not doing all these. And i'll feel guilty too.
But when he grows up and fucks up his life, while i did all these when he was young,
He have no one to blame except for himself isn't it?
I've already did my part as an older brother already.
And if you enjoy giving such racist remarks in that damn sms,
That would really make me regret having you as a friend at the first place.
Just because you are an indian, doesn't means that you can make racist remarks.
I didn't make any racist remarks at all since you know me. Did i?
I am not a racist to begin with. And I hate people being racist.
Whenever you want me to do serious stuffs.
Did i say NO right in front of your face?
No i didn't .
Did i judge you just because you're from a different race from me?
No i didn't too.
When you gonna meet me late at night and when i am tired, did i rush you saying that i want to go home early just because i am tired?
I kept my mouth shut and do what i am suppose to do.
If you already say screw it for the friendship, then screw it.
I don't really care anymore.
I've already did my part in this friendship.
And since you want to make racist remarks,
Then you can continue being a racist.
I don't like to have friends being a racist to start with.

2008-10-08T05:54:00.002+08:00

Aunt called me just now..
Begged me to be her model..
For her hair-cut show just because i have long hair..
Asking me to be her guinea pig sounds nicer to me..
But well.. She helped me lots of things afterall.. So i can't really reject her although i don't really want to do it..
Gonna dye my hair to some outstanding colour and stuffs..
I bet i gonna get some weird haircut on that damn day..
It's like it's so troublesome..
She told me that we'll first have to get some clothes for the topic of the hairstyle..
Of cause it'll be at her expense.
Then I'll have to go down a few days before the show to get my hair dyed..
She told me the colour would be ash grey.. O.o
What an outstanding colour..
Then on that day itself I'll have to let her cut my hair..
Damn.. Totally sounds like a "Ash Grey" guinea pig to me..
We'll see when that day comes..

Forget bout me, and move on with life.
I'm not worth all the efforts and troubles.

2008-09-25T01:53:00.002+08:00

Was wondering when i could stop having ichy fingers.
Was always clicking things i shouldn't click anymore.
Damn it.
It takes 1 hour to know someone,
1 day to Love someone,
and forever to forget someone.
Isn't this so true?

Called up the damn ite today,
And getting a fucked up reply,
saying that they don't have the damn course anymore.
They asked me to called up another number to ask for the study course.
Fucked up man.
Asking me to leave my particulars and saying that they will call me by 20th oct to take the test first.
Damn it.
If things doesn't goes well, Guess i've to go back to that damn school and take my Ns..
Then 17 years old still at sec 3..
Damn it.
What to do? Consequences of not going to school for this year.
See what replies i'll get at 20th to confirm things.

Dad asked me if i wanna to baptize.
Gave me the pamphlet on the baptize things..
Wanna laugh at the stupid thing.
Asking questions like..
"Which church are you from previously"
"Reason of baptizing in our church"
Wonder what are churches thinking nowadays.
I believe people who goes to church have the same reason.
So what's wrong with baptizing in different church?
Isn't it the same?
Unless every person that baptize they'll have commission uhhs?
Stupid questions they asked...
But well... Not gonna baptize.. I can't even study for my Ns now.. Wanna ask me go study the bible? Jokes...
Bible won't feed me afterall ya..

2008-09-22T03:47:00.004+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to cindy <3.

Although i don't really know whats going on around you.

Or I might be clueless to who told you all those stupid stuffs.

But well, don't worry too much ya?

What for getting so troubled with people who don't know what is a true beauty?

A true beauty is not in the looks.

But in the heart. That's the beauty.

There's a saying,

A common one.

"Do not judge a book by it's cover"

I've always believed in this.

The cover of the book might not be attractive at all.

But who knows? It might be an interesting book afterall.

The looks of every girl will be in 4 categories.

Pretty, Normal, Fat and Ugly.

Guys tends to see only the looks.

But at the end of the day,

Their character will be in only 2 categories.

Good or Bad.

So, whats the point if you get a girl who is drop dead gorgeous but fucks up your life.

But well..

End of the day,

I type so much also no use.

It could be Pretty, Sweet, Cute, Fat, Thin, Tall, Short or Ugly.

The most important thing is still money.

What's the point in getting into a relationship if you have no money?

Can Pretty, Sweet, Cute, Fat, Thin, Tall, Short or Ugly gives you food to eat?

NO!

So well,

This explains all :D Peace

And oh ya. To those who always says that their handsome/pretty.

My defination of pretty is Dawn Yang.

My defination of gorgeous is Angelina Jolie.

My defination of handsome is Tom Cruise/ Takuya Kimura.

If you think you can outbeat them in looks,

then feel free to say you're pretty/handsome.

Please kindly do that to shut my mouth.

2008-09-19T04:37:00.002+08:00

Met hazel today,
The last time i saw her was 2years ago.
Wow.. She changed alot ya? Which is a good thing.. But at the same time, whenever her boyfriend flicks his finger, she must be there. Lols.
Can't believe she could actually endure that. If she's the hazel i know 2years ago, If by chance any of her boyfriends flicks their finger and want her to be there, i think she'll most probably ask them to fuck off. :X
Well.. Had been quite sarcastic to her today. Don't know why also... This shouldn't be happening since i didn't see her for a good long 2years. *Poor hazel*
Let me say till In Front Got Nothing To Let People See, still wear so little.. :X
But well, happy for her. At least she quitted drugs and glue sniffing and took up a hairdressing course.. *Claps Claps*

Went to krislan for awhile after that.. Talked with Raja. And he told me something so fucking true. "Money don't ever spend on friend. Save them. Cause whenever you need help in money issues, no one will help you. Its the money that you've save that will help you."
A round of applause for this phase. I've already seen a few very very good examples in my life already. Spending tons of money on their friends. When they need fiancial help, none of them came. They won't think that Once Upon A Time, this guy was treating me here and there. They will think that he did that on his own free will.

God had already shown me a few Mr Nice Guy already. In fact, quite alot of them. But well.. None of them are something today. Reason behind it? Friends. Learnt that Friends could be the ones who gives you a bright future, or the ones who screws up your life. Scary isn't it?

2008-09-18T07:35:00.003+08:00

There's a saying, If there is something that will ever make a guy troubled, it'll be either girls or money. And this is so fucking true. But i am going to take away the girl part. Thought it through already. Lets put it this way.

Boys

There's this very beautiful girl walking past 10 guys.

All 10 guys are wishing to be with this girl.

All 10 of them wished at the same time.

But it's either 1 of them get to be with this girl or none of them.

Girls

I walked past this 10 dumb boys.

All of them looked at me as if they saw angels.

*Slowly walk pass and ignores*

Not intersted at all.

This might not be correct. But its from my point of view. Do correct me if i am wrong. Whenever there's something got to do with LOVE, girls always have the upperhand. Girls out there who saw this. You better Thank God that you are borned a girl. Boys out there who see this. This doesn't means that you have to curse and swear at God. Blame yourselves for being dumb if this shit is happening in your life.

Girls likes to be pampered, while Guys just need pride. I won't deny that. Pride as in whenever guys go out they tends to show off their "Girlfriend". I won't say all guys do that. But most of them does that. I remember jie jie friendster profile had something that goes like this.

" Woman have to stay pretty to keep a Man , While Man have to stay rich to keep a Woman."

Whoever that made this sentence is a clever ass. I mean, God gave us brains think. As a guy, I will admit. Whenever guys sees a pretty girl, they will be somehow attracted by them. Whenever guys see a friend or a stranger with a very beautiful girlfriend, they will look at them with envy. The Number 1 killer for Men is not Cancer. It's LUST.

I put girls in 2 groups in singapore. Its either the Dumplings or the Wanton. I put them in this 2 term describing how they wear their outfits. Group Dumplings is those who wear nicely, but covered everything. Example? cardigans, jeans, T-shirts, shoe. While Group Wanton is those who will wear Very Short Shorts, T-shirts, Slippers. And and and . I notice those who will catch boys eyes are mostly at Group Wanton. Girls don't really have to be pretty to catch a boys eyes afterall ya? Damn.. I wonder if i will fall for that trap. Who knows ? :D

2008-09-16T08:54:00.003+08:00

Decided to Blog today, after a long time.
Think i've already found my feelings.
Guess it was a very wrong thing to start back at the first place.
Guess I'm to weak to this damn 4 letter words called LOVE. Rather change it to FUCK.
As in not in the aspect to be weak in it.
Whenever there's LOVE, it'll somehow FUCK your life up. Isn't it?
Saw too much examples already. Sick and Tired of it.
Gonna remain single. Guess it's the best thing to do.
Giving up isn't something very easy to do. But well.. I've decided to do it. For the sake of both parties. No matter what reason it would be, it won't change my decision.

Somehow, I'm tired of life also. So many problems going on.
When someone is too good, people tends to make use of you.
When you're not good, people will think that you're stingy and so on.
Heard something useful today. A friend of mine told me there's this famous poet saying.
The world is like a stage. And everyone is just a actor with a mask in it.
Meaning? When you get to know someone, its not the real him/her that you know.
This is so fucking true.

This paragraph is specially for my dear friends out there.

A real friend is someone who will be there when you needed them.Not be there when you're bored or need accompanyment.
A real friend will never be asking for anything in return.
A real friend is someone that will teach you the right way instead of the wrong.

In society, Friends comes in when you have money. I won't say there are no true friends. But 95% of them comes when you have money.
In life, Friends comes in when you are entertaining enough. A friend who will have lots of fun to be with.
In school, Friends comes in depending on how "Famous" you're at school. If you're "Famous" people will wants to be your friend.
In gangsterism, Friends comes in when you can gives them the feeling of being protected and so on. To say it short, licking the boots of one another.
In brother-hood/sister-hood, We don't really calls it friends anymore. We called them brothers/sisters. They comes in because of this thing called loyalty. But it doesn't means it might be a good thing. Like i said earlier. People tends to make use of one another. Which Sucks big time.

This might be offending to some of you. But among all my friends. They will be definately in one of the list above. Now now.. My dear friends. Which one of the following are you? I feel the one basic thing in friendship is grateful-ness. Its like, i help u in something, and you are grateful that i help you. Thats enough. I won't ask for anything much. I'll be satisfied enough if you are grateful. This is me. I won't ask for anything in return. But you guys seems to take this for granted. If there's one day i changed to a very fucked up person. Blame no one. But yourselves. Those who read this post. Think back. Whenever you call or sms me. What will it be? Whenever you call or sms me, when will it be? Is there a time anyone calls or sms me and show me some concern? This leaves out for C and V.

I remember there is this saying. "To change to be a better person". Screw this sentence. To be a better person to let people make use? To be a better target to let people take advantage?

I've been thinking. Am i too stupid or what? To let people make use of. If i wanted to add it up, i can't count how many of them are there using 2 hand. I can sometimes even predict when they calling me or sms-ing me and the reason behind it. If its regarding money, even if i know, i'll still do. I just can't see a friend of mine suffer. Count yourself lucky to be a friend of mine. Don't ever force me to be a fucked up bastard. I will if i am tired of it.

I am just tired.. Very tired.

2008-09-04T18:33:00.004+08:00

Lots of things happened this few days uh..
I guess I'm losing confidence and hope.
Things are going too terribly smooth.
Too smooth till I'm getting scared.
Did you realise? Whenever you sms me, most of the time It'll be either you're bored, something happened or exams are near. Lets not say the first and the last sms of the day.

I won't deny that we're having sweet times here and there. But well.. This couldn't possibly go on forever ya? Still have to lead with important parts in life. Lets not think bout short run.. Think for the long long road ahead. I am not someone who can gives you things that you wants. Although I know you won't ask for them. Even if things are getting better, how long would that be? 1year? or maybe 2years?

I might be being very harsh now. But i guess i should be. Let me cool down for a few days ya? and I'll see how.. Sorrye for the harsh words.

To those who came to my blog and always talked to me for entertainment. If you guys see this.. You guys know who you are. I don't have to list out the names 1 by 1 i guess. Stop msging me when you guys need me. Don't ask me to entertain. I'm not some kind of clown. I am sick and tired of entertaining people. Ok?

To that particular asshole who spammed at my blog. I hope all of this shit will stop ya? You may continue if you wants to. But if you wish to continue, I'll make sure you face the consequences. Thats all I've to say. Thanks.

To those who helped me. Thanks alot guys. But i guess i won't be myself this few days. Cause of some particular mother fucker who made me like that. But well.. He helped me alot also. Made me able to think. Hope he'll heed my advice.

I'll say this again. Smses won't be entertained this few days. I might be turning off my phone too. But i guess i'll blogging. If you guys have important thing to find me, either leave me a offline msg at msn or tag at my blog.

2008-09-03T17:27:00.003+08:00

haah mel is your name short is your nick fat are your frens childish are the way u all talk and tada 16 year old find me. -.-lll come lor. brothers and sisters? haha im laughing badly. soooo scared . cindy can i ask u something, seriously mention my name if u are SO CONFIDENT about knowing who am i. if seriously u can guess correctly, i shall stop ^^, but i doubt so la.

Thanks alot for the criticise dude. Anyway, Get this right. Yes. Mel is my name. Short isn't my nick. Fat aren't my friends. Childish isn't the way we talk. First of all. You don't have a name. By not saying your name, you're either scared of "us" the 16 years old, or you are ashamed that your parents gave you a name which doesn't sounds that nice. Which one is it? You know the answer better then anyone else. You ask us come. You never put name. Come where? You know my name. You know so well that I'm short. Meaning you already saw my friendster profile and so on. So now i should be the one to say to you. You not happy? You come. I at YISHUN wait for you.

You know? Last night, when i going to sleep.. I held on my phone. Hoping to recieve a msg when you go to sleep. But i didn't recieve any. I keep waking up in the middle of the night just to check my phone if i had missed it or not. Hoping to recieve a morning sms also. But well. Nothing came.
SMS you, you never reply. There is a fucker irritating me. Spoiling my mood and spoiling my day. Can you just understand abit? I am just scared to vent it out without knowing it myself. I really don't wish that to happen. I am not going to say anything more already. Go ahead and listen to your friends. Listen to them. It might be better ya? I guess i am beginning to lose hope..

2008-09-02T15:26:00.002+08:00

mel huh, i think this will be ever going, i put u comment u edit and everything, haiz lemme say something for once, just be careful la, haha see u can last for how long. ^^ and arily, no one wans to go your blog la. i thought i said it?

To this ignorant bastard. Yes. Mel is the name. Remember it well. You put comment, i corrected you. Since when i edit. Check properly. Advice you, you don't listen. Think before you talk. You don't have to ask me be careful. You not happy, you come. We see who shall be the one to becareful ya? You hide your face behind the computer, still got the cheek ask me becareful? We see who can last longer ok? You also becareful ok? And please remember... Last time i'll be advicing you.. THINK BEFORE YOU TALK.
And i'll say this. You are not scaring me at all by calling me to becareful. Don't make me laugh dude. :D

2008-09-02T04:00:00.003+08:00

put your height and i put my name LOL nono and i laugh to death.so now i know the meaning of birds of same feather flock together. BIG TIME. no guts lor, so wat? rather than no brain sia.tall strike by lightning sia. your teacher teach one? or your parents? jialat la u. gain some common knowledge. step on your tail sia. o.Oare u still holding your birthday parties at MacDonald's? Arily, not afraid to go your blog, is i nv notice u sia. kk play with u when free. im kinda busy with work man. sry sry as in full time work not llike part times or ah lian ah beng job. psps. if u understand la i mean. xiiaoben? haha funny name, thats your name on ic huh? change to xiao bian. nicer. bad stabbers sia i read it on this blog. thats something i heard when i was sec 3 like 10 freaking years ago man. kids, grow matured la. haven come out real world work talk so much. Olvl result good?eh arily i saw your blog le, finally get to load finish the page, your english very good, i think if we really sit down and talk i will lose, 1st because the vocab power u having, 2nd, i dont think i can look into your face when u talk. u are even **gly. o.O if u guessed it alot of people muz have said that to u. and arily this name, surely doesnt suits u.okok i shall be graceious and admit im mr coward, but then aint u gonna admit u are miss **gly. and your blog really long to load, i cant get in, and seriously i was thinking, w/o my recent posts,u will have nothing to post? and eeeeee u got bf, still with him sia..... stamp collection is his hobbies?ok i seriously have an affiation for pretty babes, so this is my last time talking to u. ''tada''

Yepps.. This post is specially for this sissy. A so called " MAN" who enjoy hiding under skirts.. Well, don't know whose. Maybe some old lady? :D

Ok.. Let me this 16 years old boy teach you this "Mature" man ok? Since you think you're mature enough.

I correct you by every comment you tagged me :D relax.. I'll take my time today. Be honoured. Cause i'll be using my precious time towards worthless people like you.

1.put your height and i put my name LOL nono and i laugh to death.so now i know the meaning of birds of same feather flock together. BIG TIME. no guts lor, so wat? rather than no brain sia.
Are you sure if i put my height and you'll put your name? I don't mind you know. Being short is not something i am ashamed about. And please don't make me laugh dude. "birds of same feather flock together"? LOL! You means you and your friends uh? All after work only know how to come people blog to teach people. Teach people also need use brain. Think before you talk. God gave you a brain to think. Use it wisely. Instead of coming here to say all this worthless shits. You and do something more worth it. So... Who is the one having no brains over here. Even you have one. You got brains, but you no guts.. Whats the use? Talk so big behind the computer and hide your face? WOW.. *claps claps*

2.tall strike by lightning sia. your teacher teach one? or your parents? jialat la u. gain some common knowledge. step on your tail sia. o.O
Hey.. Go home and gain some common sense ok? After you do that, we will go and gain some common knowledge. For what i see, you've got no common sense at all.. Not even a bit..

3.are u still holding your birthday parties at MacDonald's? Arily, not afraid to go your blog, is i nv notice u sia. kk play with u when free. im kinda busy with work man. sry sry as in full time work
Eh.. Your english also very good.. You so mature, say until you yourself got brain. But you don't know how to speak proper english uh? What kind of lousy english is this.. Your teacher teach you this kind of english uh? I think you have to go back to secondary school to learn your grammar and vocabs. If you still find it too hard, no worries. There's always primary school. There is a saying. It will be never too old to learn things.. So ya..

4.not llike part times or ah lian ah beng job. psps. if u understand la i mean. xiiaoben? haha funny name, thats your name on ic huh? change to xiao bian. nicer
Can you kindly define what is your so called ah lian, ah beng jobs? Wow.. How mature and clever for you to think of that uh? You human or cat? God gives you brain to think. Use your own phase please. Instead of copying me. Makes me so not creative. People at least had a better name then you ya.. What ^^. Don't make me laugh. Your IC name is passerby or ^^? You better go check it out ya? Later your surname is Chao. Then name is Useless. So full name + surname + chinese name will be. Chao Ah Gua Useless.

5.bad stabbers sia i read it on this blog. thats something i heard when i was sec 3 like 10 freaking years ago man. kids, grow matured la. haven come out real world work talk so much. Olvl result good?
This is my blog ya.. I put "I hate back stabbers" is also none of your business. Even i want to put " Hates, Sissy who hides the face behind the computer and hides under skirts" also my business. So.. 10 years ago.. You sec3. Now should be 25-26 years old ya? Somehow.. I really pity you. So old already still don't know how to think.. I say i 16. This year. O lvl results? Do you even have brain to think? Thats why.. Now i advice you.. Think before you talk. You talk already then think, make me got chance to say you. You wants to talk at my blog, make me got nothing to say. Don't tell me all this craps. And.. You come out to real world already? Doesn't seems like that to me uh? Please don't talk till so big in front of me. It won't work. Especially if you don't even dare to say your own name.

6.eh arily i saw your blog le, finally get to load finish the page, your english very good, i think if we really sit down and talk i will lose, 1st because the vocab power u having, 2nd, i dont think i can look into your face when u talk. u are even **gly. o.O if u guessed it alot of people muz have said that to u. and arily this name, surely doesnt suits u.
Thanks for the compliment you gave to my jie jie. And oh ya.. You criticise bout her looks. Hey, first of all. Are you really that handsome? What makes you think that my jie jie see you already she won't puke before you do? For someone who hides his name and face behind the computer, how handsome could he be? Time for you to use some brain cells ya? Maybe name not too nice to hear and face not that good looking? So don't comment bout people until you proves that you are better. thank you.

7.okok i shall be graceious and admit im mr coward, but then aint u gonna admit u are miss **gly. and your blog really long to load, i cant get in, and seriously i was thinking, w/o my recent posts,u will have nothing to post? and eeeeee u got bf, still with him sia..... stamp collection is his hobbies?
LOL.. Don't make me laugh dude.. You don't need to be gracious at all.. You are mr coward. And oh ya.. This is the reason why i asked you to go back to secondary school to learn. Gracious is spelled like that. Not Graceious. Did your teacher even have a cert when he/she teaches you?
And so now you think you're a hero uh? Because of your recent post, my jie jie got something to update. *claps claps* A round of applause for you if you think so. You sure likes to stick your nose into other people business. Let me ask you. Do you have a girlfriend? There's nothing wrong with stamps collections. My uncle collects stamp. And he confirm earns more money then you dude. So if you don't have a collection, and you don't earn much and finally you still likes to criticise that much.. Then i've something to tell you.. SHAME ON YOU!

8.ok i seriously have an affiation for pretty babes, so this is my last time talking to u. ''tada''
You say till every babe see you will like you. Don't make me puke dude. By saying this, You are being shameless. You think my jie will have interest in cowards uh?

Done will all the points. Hope you could just sit down and think regarding your childish and shameless words. I really hope you could understand what i mean. Cause i really don't know if your teacher had a cert or not. So.. My advice to you will be, When you talk, think first. I guess even a 10 years old kid could understand the meaning behind them. So if you can't, you know better then me whats wrong ya?

Dear, Sorrye uh..
This fool wanna climb over my head.. :X
Don't mind my crude words ya? :D
ILY <3

2008-08-31T18:10:00.001+08:00

What Melvin Tang Mai Rong Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you.

You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night.

Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-08-27T17:07:00.002+08:00

Yepps yepps.
So long never post.
Today shall post :D
Reason? Got this Coward Who don't have the guts to say who he was, and only was named at NumberX spammed my x33 Cindy's blog.
NumberX uh... Don't make me laugh ok? Joker.

Ok.. Back to point. This joker is somehow funny.
Criticize about people.
Get this straight. You got no guts to say who you are,
But you got guts to criticize.
If you are a guy,
Be a MAN and show your face.
Don't be a sissy and hide your face inside your mother's skirt.
If you're a girl,
Then by doing this, I can see that you're just a girl without dignity and pride.
If you are too young to understand this, Kor kor me shall give you a simpler phase to understand. You're just making yourself cheap, slut.

Don't know you how old.
But to confirm one thing, you're just a waste of time, effort and money.
I somehow feel very sad for your mother.
If you want to know now it had no business with your mother and why i'll bring her to my blog to say, although i don't reallye know if she's already 6 feet below or what, but i don't care. You can say till people's family and so i shall bring your mother here to say.
You started it. My brother's and Sister's friends are my friends. My brother's and sister's parents are my parents. My brother's and sister's problems are my problem.
This is me.

Dear NumberX,

I have no idea if your mother is already 6 feet below sleeping soundly or what.

But you have reallye make me pissed off with you. So even if aunty is sleeping

soundly 6 feet below, I will be bringing her up 6 feet above to show her how shameful

her son/daughter is right now. You might be angry to hear what i am saying.

But do i looks like i care? Dear NumberX. Its not reallye wise to step on other people's tail ya.

Let me correct you from your tag at x3Cindy derh blog.

Firstly, Why do you need to care what the put at her blog? Your friends will run away? Your problem lah. No one ask them to see also. They got the choice to choose if they want to see it or not. No one use a gun pointing at them forcing them to read.

Secondly, Cindy is not the pathetic one. You are the pathetic one instead. Get a life dude.

I am sure you don't know how to court girls. You don't understand how a girl think and feels.

At least she got her dreams. Do you even have one dude? Or you are too pathetic to have one?

Thirdly, How old are you dude. Seriously, I don't reallye care. But if a 16 years old kid and correct you from all this, don't you think its a shame? I tell you something,

What kind of problem will people aged 15-16 will face and the so called YOU won't face?
If you dislike Cindy's ah lian style, you can Fuck off anytime you wants. You don't have to criticize on it. Not everybody hates her ah lian style ya. If everybody hate it, then she'll have no friends.

Lastly, I reallye hope that you could understand what i mean. I don't reallye care bout what you thinks or feels. Its none of my business. But as i say. I wouldn't have stick my nose into this if you didn't put your words in such a harsh manners. Think before you talk dude. And don't say until you're very mature. You don't sounds mature to me at all.

Thats all I've to say. If you're anytime not happy or have any doubts, kindly e-mail or add me at thekeyandthelock@hotmail.com.

And oh ya.. Since i called your mother up from 6feet below just now, she can go back to her sleep now.

*kicks her back down 6 feet*

Since you don't know this word called respect, No one in your family deserves my respect too.

By kicking is already very good. I didn't throw. She will have a few more broken bones even though she's already 6 feet below if i had thrown her.

2008-08-21T01:02:00.002+08:00

Slacked, Slacked and Slacked...
Read, Read and Read..
OMG .. Can you believe it?
MELVIN TANG actually is reading books...
Cant't reallye believe it also...
When i compeleted reading that book,
That was the 2nd book i've finish reading in my life.
The first one was Star Was.
LOL!
:D

Indeed things are getting better. :D
Let it get better instead of going worst ya?
I know... You likes pervert... Just that you're denying it.. :D
You already fell in love with a pervert already...
Will be eating you anytime :D
Blehs!
LOVE YOU!

2008-08-20T03:52:00.002+08:00

Was quite a day today.
Read the book "Heaven Is So Real!"
Haven't finish it though.
Can't reallye read it during afternoon..
Having lots of flashbacks.
Just trying to avoid.
Can't reallye find the courage to face it at this point of time.

If I've not liked someone that deep,
I won't have that kind of negative feelings at all.
You can't just say that the trust is not enough.
Its the same like you.
If i didn't like someone,
Whoever she go out with , i won't care.
Whatever she do, i won't care.
Whenever she smses me, i reply when i feel like doing so.
Sometime will be wrong is i don't get those kind of negative feelings.

I thought it over..
If i once never place enough trust,
Whenever you sms someone, i'll ask you. Who you sms just now?
Whatever you do, i'll expect you to tell me in details.
Whoever you go out with, i'll ask who you go out with.

If i ever never placed enough belief,
Then it will happen long ago.
I know things beforehand already.
Same class, same school etc etc.
Why must wait till that day then will suddenly get that kind of feelings?

I found out that its not i am falling.
I am somehow angry.
Angry bout why in the world would that cause back that gap?
I certainly hated that damn gap.
I believe that gap was once caused by this damn thing called trust too uh?
I reallye don't want to talk bout the past anymore.
So from today onwards,
It'll be gone.
I know it won't be immediately.
But it'll be definately gone slowly.
I'll give you my words for that.
Regarding the gap,
To me, there's no gap now. But mis-understanding.

I don't need you to change anything.
In fact, you don't have to.
Didn't you realise this r/s is much more sweeter then the past?
Seriously.. I reallye enjoyed it alot.
Whenever you sent a sms,
I was so eager to read it.
So eager to see your sweettalks,
So eager to see the 8 letters you'll say to me frequently,
So eager to tell you to rest earlye. Take care of health
and so on.

Whenever you wanted to meet up,
I was so happy.
Standing retarded-ly infront of my wardrobe choosing which outfit should i wear.
After bathing will stand in front of the mirror if i looks good enough.
Go out earlye in case i'll be late and so on.

Whenever you tell me something happened in school and so on,
I will be so worried,
Worried till the point of time that i could fly down immediately to see you.
Worried that you'll be thinking bout lots of stuffs all day.
Worried that things might happen to you.

Seriously,
Darling. I can be retarded or stupid for you.
And it'll be just YOU. I swear that there's no or there'll be no 2nd girl that i'll do this for.

There are people who asked me before.
Why will i like back my ex?
How in the world i know?
The feeling just came back like the wind.
Comes whenever it wanted.
And once it comes,
It'll be hard to go.

If you ever think that me loving you will make me stressed,
you're wrong. I am not stressed in loving you at all.
I am only stressed when there are obsticles.
But you tell me. In life, where can you find friendship/relationship
without obsticles?
There will be obsticles.
But i know it very well myself.
I don't have the courage to face it.
I don't know what to say. Afraid to put it in words that'll hurt you.
Guess these words will hurt you lots too.
Its not i don't care anymore.
When i know it'll hurt you and i still going to post it,
You think my heart not pain?
Its like needles pricking it.
But somehow i still have to explain.

If you think because of this incident will make my love for you stop suddenly,
you're wrong too.
If you think that i gave up. Its wrong too.
I admit. I did think of giving up. Somehow, i am sick and tired of it.
But if "someone" sitting among the clouds is giving me challenges,
you think i'll just sit down and laugh and say. "Haha, challenge uh? I don't want to do anything bout it. I give up"

Somehow.. I reallye wanted to Slap myself.
Damn it. I always help people during relationship problems.
When it comes to my own, i became a tortise. Hid my head inside the shell hoping someone will
come knocking my shell and advice me what to do.
At least.. Advice me in the way i expected.
But end of the day, Who come?
No one.
I guess i'll have to stop sticking my nose into other people's business.
Settle my own first.

Today is 20/08/2008
20th brings lots of memories back for me.
Basically, sweet ones.
You remember how much fun we had the last time?
We spent the 1st month at vivo.
I reallye missed that kind of feelings.
There are basically no worries bout anything.
Studies or Friends.
The mindset was just having fun and enjoy the time we had tgt.
The last time we met before we broke up is at my school's church.
It was so sweet too. The songs, The glowing lights and so on.

After we broke up and we met up the first time during my birthday.
You bought me a cake SO big that was so unbelievable.
At least... For 2 to eat.
Had so much fun on that day too.
Can't finish the cake and gave it to the SBS uncles and so on.
The last time we met till now is outside your school.
Went to GCW to accompany you to study.
Talked bout the olympians, jonathan something, the little girl and the prata on the ceiling.
Then went to the shop n save to buy bread.
The way you hugged me from behind,
I just possibly forget the feeling..
The warmth in it.

Everytime we went out,
Its kept within my heart.
So you think for me to give up is easy uh?
In fact. Do you think i'll give up although i think so?
While having flashbacks now..
I reallye wanted to cry.
I just missed the fun, enjoyment and feelings we had back then.
Whenever i met you,
I'll forget bout the stuffs i had in my heart.
Even if i am not feeling very happy, You somehow will manage to change my emotions.
When i met you, the first thing i always had been waiting to see was your smiles.
Whenever you leaves, I will be thinking. Did you had fun today?
How to make next time better.

I just can't give up on this relationship.
Even if i can, i can't forget. So whats the point on giving up?
I wanted things to be back like we had before.
Not having things we had before, with a gap over there.
I wanted you to know how much i love you.
Thats the reason why i'll say and do all this.
I know.. I am too harsh on the last sms i sent.
I've been waiting for you to reply every now and then.
Looking at my phone every 10 mins hoping a sms back from you.
Even till now.
I am wondering if you'll sms me when you wakes up like the usuals.
Since you didn't sms me when you went to sleep last night?
When you sms me. What should i reply?
I am afraid to hurt you once again.
Lots of things have been happening this few days.
But can i be self-fish to ask you to bear with it ?
Reallye want to settle this problem real soon.
But well..
Melvin still loves you ya?
We are both trying to save it. But somehow whenever we talked bout it in sms, it'll just crash.
Sorrye darling.. for making you cry in public yesterday.
But i hope you'll try to understand how i feel also..
Going off to sleep now.. Didn't sleep whole night cause i can't get to sleep..
Won't be sms-ing you. Its 5.19am now. got to go school later. don't wanna disturb you.
Melvin will be waiting for your morning sms as usual.
No worries bout that.

Nights darling. Alot have been happening this few days. But we'll pull through derh ya?
I'll trust you lerhs. And i trust and belief whole heartedly we'll pull through this. :D
I love you sweetie. <3>

2008-08-17T01:13:00.005+08:00

Finally reached home.
So tired .. Mentally and Physically.
Cause just now was talking to jon..
Talk bout lots and lots of things..
Regarding Love and Life.
Reallye don't know if i should say this in blog or not.
Well.. I know it might cause some mis-understanding over here.
But i still decided to post it..

Jon's Love life is pratically good :D
He is just one lucky guy . I swear.. No one could be more lucky then him if it comes to love.
Somehow, was jealous of him. Doesn't seems like me uh.. To actually jealous of someone cause of this thing called LOVE.
But his life towards career is totally sucks.. Feel reallye sad for him..
I tried to put myself in his shoe. If i was him, i reallye don't know what i'll do.
Seriously.. I might even come to the step of ending my life.. Imagine how sucks it is.
But well.. If there is a chance for Jon to see this.
JON! Melvin respects you. :D
He's reallye a very good friend to start with :D

Talking bout my own..
I guess i might be just too sensitive though..
She went out to study with this "particular" him today.
Somehow, was a little jealous bout it. don't know why also.
Just feelings.. Can't control it.
Its like.. So many friends.. But why him?
After thinking. Well.. It should be as a position of a good friend bah.
So.. Didn't go think much bout it anymore.
Afterall.. I trust her.
Towards this thing called love, i've learned that if someone reallye loves you,
going out with whoever doesn't have any problem.
Cause if it have problems, the love is just not deep enough.
And its meaningless to keep it anymore.
So to say it in a easier way,
Whats yours will be yours. If its not yours, whatever you do, it's still not going to be yours.
And i found out something..
Jealousy Kills.. It reallye kills.
So Melvin is going to remove this word called Jealousy in his dictionary.
Well.. Don't know if i can.. But i shall try.
And i am going to highlight this word called trust.

I don't know if this post will lead to any mis-understanding.
I reallye hope it won't.
Although i know the risk in it and decided to say it in blog is because i want you to know how i feel.
I don't want to lie to myself regarding sensitive things like this.
You know? Dexter asked me what i feel when you going to library to study with him.
I thought for awhile.. And i told him i was feeling abit jealous. Then he say.. Abit jealous only uh? Then i was thinking. I don't know why. I can't control the jealous part. But i know. You trusted me so you told me yourself that you're going to study with him. I believe you trusted me to have no negative feelings ya?
Then when you woke up, you told me you fell sick..
Everytime you told me you fall sick, i'll be very worried, sad and disappointed.
Worried because u fell sick.
Sad is not beacause you didn't take care of yourself. Sad is because i can't be there to look after you.
And of cause. Disappoiontment in myself.
Hope you won't have any mis-understanding.
And lastly.. I wanted to say sorrye.. I just can't control myself to have all this negative thoughts earlier on.
But well. The love from me to you will not have any affections.
In fact. I believe it'll be deeper.
If i ever do or say anything wrong, you must must must tell me.
Cause Melvin wants to change to be a better person.
I don't want to do things that are wrong.
Tell me so i could change for the better.
Darling.. I believe you're the only one that could change me now ya.
I love you <3

2008-08-14T23:30:00.001+08:00

ARGH!
Sick lehhs.. Sianns... T.T
Cough lehs~ hah. but got people sweettalk lehs~
:D

Someone today finish oral liiaos~ was super happy ouh..
past few days that someone was like... zibi ..
Practicing oral alone at home. hahas.. like very weird luhh..
Talking to ownself at home.. LOL
dont say talk to ownself lah.. sounds very bad.. talk to the wall..
PS. Now is Hungry ghost festival ouh.. you dont know who is beside listening..
maybe is a Ahem.. de invigilator.. haha.

ok.. blog dao zhe yang :D same same . lazy type :D

Melvin~ signing off :D

Hmm.. You still haven't tell me .. if melvin could be compared to something,
what would the something be? :D
just finish oral.. let you use some brain cells. *evil smile*
if i can choose.. i reallye wants to be your bolster.. :X
melvin is so jealous of your bolster now >
argh.. jealous with a non-living thing xD
but it has every reason to make me jealous :D
huggies~ :D loves

2008-08-13T23:07:00.002+08:00

Hah!
At dexter's house now :D
He's sleeping now ^^
Just now before meet him,
He said sometime that sounds very very wrong..
He say, when i reach his house, he will give me a good ride..
LOL
Sounds so wrong lah!
Then he tio tekan!
I had the longest and the most expensive cab ride in my life today,
2hours inside the cab and the fair was $81
So so so expensive :D
was smsing darling inside the cab :D
She's just so sweet as usual.
Well, sweet enough to make me love her more :D
hahas hao barhs.. lazy type liiaos.. tired tired.
:D

2008-08-12T22:15:00.002+08:00

Hah!
Today was a tiring and fun day :D
Stomache so pain, was like laughing all the way.
Cause of this lil girl :X
So cute, was praising her. (So called praising)
Then after praising her, all i get was something not very good :X
Then was saying that Jonathan Hortan was my student. I teached him how to turn :X
(some kind of USA olympic guy) LOL
Ops. Someone didnt score well for chinese wor. :D
No worrys okays? Study harder for the retest ^^
I wouldnt ask for high scores. I wouldnt be disappointed in what grade u take.
As long as u give ur best shot , it would be enough :D
Melvin have eyes to see how hardworking are u
But please do not work too hard.
Find some time to rest.
Melvin is scared that u'll break down.
I love you, darling <33

you know you know?
Within my heart, you're already my girl.
But statues wise, you are not.
But well, who cares bout that? Don't you agree with me darling?
And oh ya oh ya~
Don't cry anymore ok?
Melvin doesn't wants his darling to shed tears.
Not even one. :D
When you're with Melvin, only smiles and laughter are allows.
Tears and anger are banned.
Promise me not to cry anymore,
And lastly, i promise u that i'll love you :D
ILY <3

2008-08-11T16:42:00.002+08:00

Finally had the strength to turn on the computer. And blog. LOL
Well.. Had been sleeping since yesterday. Had a tiring and fun day during national day :D
I had my x33 jie jie, dexter , nat, wayne and HER tgt with me this national day.
Well.. although its not my birthday .. But who cares? We are all there to see the fireworks :D
After the fireworks went to see money not enough 2. was a very funny movie. and oh ya oh ya!
Dex dex ouh~ did u notice that your eyes were so super red and swollen? :X
So emotional.. :X
After the movie , dexter went home first.. so left with me, HER , jie jie and wayne.
Went to Mac to slack. hahas. was talking bout lots and lots of things.
But time is like.. taking its own sweet time..
We talked bout house, ghost, car, human torch, word that start from S and end with X.( wayne is very excited bout it.) :D

Lazy to type what happen next .
Lets jump to summary :D

Melvin is very tired that morning.
Thanks to "someone's" shoulder, that had let melvin felt that warmth.
warmth that cant be described.
Then someone said my head is light. cause got nothing in it.
which is pretty true. If there is something in it, that would be YOU.
Then we had breakfast. then went to void deck to slack for awhile.
After that jiu go home liiaos. took cab back..

If u ever wanted me to describe how it feels to lie on your shoulder,
It would be feelings that can't be describe. The only thing that covers the whole thing is warmth.

2008-08-07T10:29:00.004+08:00

Yepps,
Actually wanted to blog at morning when i reach home derh.
Which is at around 3am... o.O
Was talking to jon bout lots and lots of things..
We was like talking bout his "$" life, his "love" life and my
"love" life :D
hahas.
Then after that we went to 7-11..
STUPID JON! tmd.. ask me help him buy FHM and maxim..
say he paiiseh. x.x
Didnt know jon will paiisehh derhhs.. :X "Lim Pei Jon Leh"
He likes to say that :D
PS, I am super super jealous of him.. Reason? It shall be kept a secret :D

Anyway.. For those who visit my blog ,
I have a very good deal :D
A lan shop i know was selling away the comps over there,
The specs are,

INTEL PROCESSOR
17" LCD Monitors
2 GB DDR Dual Channel RAM
120GB / 160GB SATA II Hard Drive
GeForce PCI-Express 7600GT DDR3
Optical Mouse (changing to your personal mouse are allowed
Multimedia Internet Keyboard

for jus $900 :D cheap?
give me a sms if u wan ^^

1st Post, Blog offically up :D

2008-08-06T00:35:00.003+08:00

Yeppies! Blog is finally up :D
Lots and lots of things happened today,
Good , bad and good-bad things :X

Lets start with the good-bad things :D

Went to darling's school at 3.45 :D
Meeting her was a good thing. But someone isn't in a good mood ouh~
Didn't know what happened also. She didn't want to tell me.
But well. Its okay barhhs. She must have her reason :D
Accompanied her to walked home :X
Then was talking bout this.. "Outstanding School" she asked me to go and study at.
Which I won't. Its way too "Outstanding" for melvin :D
Or should I say, melvin is way too "Outstanding" for that school. Blehx
Then slacked at the seats right opposite her blk while waiting for her x33
tution teacher to come :D
Hate her tution teacher! rawrhs! Made my darling let me go home alone :X
But well. If it could make her happy, even for just abit, it'll be a trip worthed it :D

Good things shall be,

Ke aii de Joyce mei mei smsed me today :D
Someone learned how to twiit word lerh wor~
Which makes me have the urge to twiit..
Blehx. This silly sOtOnq mei mei Of mine :D
First sms Of the dae tO this kOr kOr callinq him darlinq and givinq him a mOrninq kiss :D
And Oh yarhhs.. She called me darlinq silly sOtOng kOr kOr just because she is my
silly sOtOng mei mei wOr. :D
How sweet this mei of mine cOuld be sOmetimes :D

And Finally , the bad thing.. :X

Qing aii derh mei mei xuan sms me telling me she broke up with her boyfriend liiaos..
And i asked her to tell her bf to Fuck off and die. lols.
I know. It might sounds ridiculous. But well, after hearing what mei told me,
its a 70% that her bf just treated her as a substitute of his ex.
By saying that he had loved you before doesn't proves anything.
To my point of view, from what u told me, why does he have to give up both?
Since u say liiaos. Is his ex come back and snatch. If he really have no more feelings for
his ex , then do you think that he have give up anything? And what makes you so sure that
is his ex come back and snatch? If he really likes you, even if his ex come back and snatch,
do you think his heart will get kidnap by his ex so easily? If his ex just say a few words and
do a few things. And that can makes him saying break-up, all i can say is his heart is
still not with you. His heart is still lying around somewhere with someone .
So.. My final advice will be still the same . :D
Ask that God Damn Fucker to Fuck Off And Die !

To HER ;
You know? It reallye scares me when u say u in a bad mood in the morning. Although i am curious about
what thing can makes u so... LOW. but well. i just wants you to know that if u ever needs me. I will definately
try my very best to be there with you. If you ever have no shoulders to lie on, my shoulders will be always there for you.
And oh ya.. 1000x sorrye that i am not able to reply your msgs.. My phone went out of batt.. T.T Gomenasai.
Anyway, i'll be looking forward to national day :D I want my VIP massage service ^^ since i only got abit today..
And getting bullied throughout the whole trip :X
Deep down within my heart,
i just wants to tell you that,
i love you <3